Don't Know What You Got ('Til It's Gone) 1/?: aeura

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Don't Know What You Got ('Til It's Gone) 1/?

Feb 24, 2011 05:49

Title: Don't Know What You Got ('Til It's Gone)
Author: Yusta (me)
Length: 3 chapters
Status: Incomplete
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Slight angst, mild language, POV switch, m/m
Category: Romance/Drama
Summary: You never know things that are beneath the surface until you look. Don't assume or you will never know. Story of two boys and their lives going through high school. MM Eventually don't read if you don't like.

Don't Know What You Got ('Til It's Gone)

/Behind the Smile - Chapter 1/

Introductory chapter. Sorry its short. I am going to write more soon. I hope to get some reviews that would be nice :).

Warnings: Will be slash mm yaoi whatever you want to call it, eventually. So if you don't like don't read. Oh and also I have no beta or anything so anything I miss please note because I most likely missed it.

Thanks enjoy!

Chapter 1: Behind the Smile.

Selyv Errick:

Most people when they meet me say that my parents must hate me to give me a name like Selyv. I truly love my name, not because its weird and I bet no one else in the world has it as a name but because my mom decided on it.

On my 13th birthday my Mother died. Hit by a drunk driver going the wrong way in traffic on her way back home from work. Worst day of my life. Still to this day I hate it when my birthday comes around. Most people get happy on their birthday and tell everyone, I don't. I take the week off if I can because I don't want people wishing me a happy birthday.

You see my Mom was on the phone with me when the drunk driver hit her, telling me she would be home soon and Happy Birthday again. Which means I heard my own Mother getting slammed into from the side and the sound of metal crunching her frail body. Her screams reverberate through my mind, and will probably never leave me. I have never told anyone that I was on the phone with her when she died. Most of my friends are all very superficial and I don't want to seem weak in front of Luke.

In 3rd grade I met Luke, and we hit it off right away. When he was younger he was that kid that everyone loved and wanted to pick up. With his bright blond hair and dark brown eyes he was the picture of cuteness. Not to say that he isn't now but he's on the swim team now and very ripped and not so cute anymore.

We don't talk as much as we used to. Something must have happened in between middle school and high school for him because he stopped asking me to come over. We are two grades apart but before my junior year it never really seemed to matter to us. He's the only friend that knows I have no Mom, and the only person that knows me well. When I think back on it I wish last year I tried to talk to him more, so it wouldn't seem like there is this giant gap in between us.

I absolutely hate February, nothing good ever happens in this month. Its always raining and when its not raining its icing and there is no practice to go to yet to distract my mind. That and its the month before March, and I hate the fact of that day coming up soon. Everyday I try my hardest to stay away from home. Its not like why most kids do these days trying drugs and alcohol, Im just trying to stay away from my father. On a normal day after school I go to soccer practice or some sort of club if thats not in season then go to the Days Inn down the street where I work from 5-10 doing whatever the hell they want me to, then work at the Sunoco gas station till 3 am. Then on the weekends I work at Sweet Treats a adorable little bakery thats owned by two older ladies.

Most people find me insane when I tell em why I can't hang out. But I like it, I would never tell them the real reason that my Dads drunk 24/7 and throws his bottles at me when Im home. Not even Luke knows. God I miss him though. I guess part of the reason I work so much is not only to avoid my Father so much as it is missing him.

Five years ago I figured out I was gay, year later I realized I was in love with my best friend. Now I haven't even talked to him in two years and have no idea why. It hurts me more emotionally than I like to admit my love completely ignoring me. Today is no different. Most people in the halls would like we are minor acquaintances. When I see him I flash him a big grin hoping that maybe today will be different and he'll smile back at me. He always nods and dips his head down to the ground just barely acknowledging I exist. It sends a pain through my heart every time that makes my smile falter a little bit. Only a little bit