rotting from the inside out;
lmfao i just feel like a completely useless and worthless human being like
god i can't motivate myself for anything related to college even though i KNOW i'm running out of time for stuff, but in the end i feel like it doesn't even really matter since i'm just going to unlv... idk what to think anymore on if it's even a good university or not, but i just feel like i could go to somewhere so much better or whatever if i had any ambition or idea as to what i want to do. this is how i always am though; i know i could be good, i just don't have the motivation for it and i hate it. (orchestra is the perfect example of this haha) i know that it's okay to not know and kind of just flounder around for a year or so, but it still feels bad. i have good grades and did pretty well on the sat and act, it's just that... there's nothing i want to do. i feel like i'm going nowhere and i always will.
u_u idk man i just wish i could do nothing and sit on my laptop all day or something... i.e. waste my life away except that's what i already do oops what is feeling any sense of worth in anything alas.
granted this laptop is a piece of shit and continuously giving me problems so not too sure about sitting all day on this laptop in particular...
god i can't motivate myself for anything related to college even though i KNOW i'm running out of time for stuff, but in the end i feel like it doesn't even really matter since i'm just going to unlv... idk what to think anymore on if it's even a good university or not, but i just feel like i could go to somewhere so much better or whatever if i had any ambition or idea as to what i want to do. this is how i always am though; i know i could be good, i just don't have the motivation for it and i hate it. (orchestra is the perfect example of this haha) i know that it's okay to not know and kind of just flounder around for a year or so, but it still feels bad. i have good grades and did pretty well on the sat and act, it's just that... there's nothing i want to do. i feel like i'm going nowhere and i always will.
u_u idk man i just wish i could do nothing and sit on my laptop all day or something... i.e. waste my life away except that's what i already do oops what is feeling any sense of worth in anything alas.
granted this laptop is a piece of shit and continuously giving me problems so not too sure about sitting all day on this laptop in particular...