finally
I didn't sleep much last night. I didn't go to work today. After calling the office at 0530 I went back to bed. It didn't help that the wind howled all night; gusting over 90 km per hour. The real issue was should I go back to work or not?
After sleeping (finally) for a few hours I got up, showered, dressed and drove into work. I requested that the "waiver request" be withdrawn and that my medical release go ahead. I could have worked another 2 1/2 years in the army reserves but I wouldn't be able to progress career wise and the unit I belong to needs healthy soldiers who are fully deployable which I am not. So rather that stay in a holding pattern I decided to release now so I could go forward. I don't know what I am going forward towards yet but that is okay. I have my release medical appointment, an appointment at clothing stores to return all of my kit, and an appointment with the unit release clerk to do the paper work. I've already turned in my building keys, memory stick and encryption card.
For now I am going to help Hubby with basement renovations, read and let the emotional and mental healing catch up with the physical. I am going to focus on fund raising and training for my Weekend to End Breast Cancer 60 km walk.
I feel as if a great weight has been lifted. I'm not sure if it's because I finally made a decision any decision or that the decision was to leave the military. It's probably a bit of both.
After sleeping (finally) for a few hours I got up, showered, dressed and drove into work. I requested that the "waiver request" be withdrawn and that my medical release go ahead. I could have worked another 2 1/2 years in the army reserves but I wouldn't be able to progress career wise and the unit I belong to needs healthy soldiers who are fully deployable which I am not. So rather that stay in a holding pattern I decided to release now so I could go forward. I don't know what I am going forward towards yet but that is okay. I have my release medical appointment, an appointment at clothing stores to return all of my kit, and an appointment with the unit release clerk to do the paper work. I've already turned in my building keys, memory stick and encryption card.
For now I am going to help Hubby with basement renovations, read and let the emotional and mental healing catch up with the physical. I am going to focus on fund raising and training for my Weekend to End Breast Cancer 60 km walk.
I feel as if a great weight has been lifted. I'm not sure if it's because I finally made a decision any decision or that the decision was to leave the military. It's probably a bit of both.