Courage

[aeswyr]

So, recently I've been rehashing things that I wish I had said, or did but simply didn't have the courage to do so. I guess I lack courage, unless there's some sort of medium between myself and the recieving party, or unless I know them very well and are not afraid of repercussions because I have faith in them that they understand me enought to not

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[yakkorat]

Love you, honey. Always always always. If I disowned all the friends who felt that way, I wouldn't have any friends. And I don't necessarily disagree. I will always love him. He will never be good for me. But I am married to him, and we'll see where that takes us. Who knows. Maybe we'll find a way to be good for each other. Or maybe we'll go our separate ways and still both adore our daughter. I don't know what the future holds, but I discount nothing.

But it means a lot to me that you love me enough to say that to me. To say it to my face, so to speak, and even moreso, to keep talking to me even though you don't care for my situation. I'd like to say that I'll never forgive the people who have stopped talking to me because they don't want to deal with Jason, but you know me, and that would be a lie. I don't have it in me to stay angry forever. But they hurt me a great deal, and it still hurts. So again, thank you. Thank you so much for being you. For giving Jason to me when it was clear I really loved him. For coming to my wedding even though the whole affair was a debacle and you didn't really agree with the marriage anyway. For standing with me whenever I needed you. I appreciate it. I appreciate you.

And your daughter is the cutest child ever. (Except for Talia, of course. *wink*) Send new pictures soon. I'll do the same when our camera stops being a turd.

Love, Always,
Julie-Rae

Happy times are here to stay

[aeswyr]

Darling, I just want you to be happy..which I don't think I've ever seen you for more than a day. I know your writing makes you happy-and some of it is truly brilliant-and I know your daughter makes you happy-of course, who wouldn't be thrilled to have such a sweet little munchkin?-and I know that most of your friends make you happy -let's just face it, I'm fabulous!-but I can't help to notice all the things that don't make you happy...most of which have to do with some family, some friends and mostly your situation. But you know that I'll always be here for you...even if you want to fly to the moon I'll figure out a way for us to do so...and even if I don't agree with your decision I will support you because I know that you could conquer the world, and any others that lend life, as long as you have someone to support you. There is no other person in this world that I could hope to be but one that inspires you and makes you feel comfortable.
And your wedding wasn't THAT bad, you know, barring the fact that I was acting as security instead of the six men holding the swords. Ah mi, I guess I was more intimidating in the long run...I knew I should have worn pants and carried my own blade (oh, wait, Jason ended up with that one didn't he?). *sigh* always the warrior, never the princess. That's alright, I prefer to be queen anyhow!

Love you forever!