It's been one week

Apr 15, 2005 00:30


alright, so it hasn't, but that's the song on the radio right now.

I have had this constant headache for the last three days, and nothing I do or take is getting rid of it. I also am lacking in the sleep department. Clara's appetite has grown and I'm having trouble coordinating her last meal, bottle and bath together so that she's not waking up every three hours or so because she's hungry.

I have a chiropracter's appointment Saturday morning, but before this guy cracks my bones I get a half hour massage. Can't wait, perhaps I'll gain back those two inches I lost while pregnant. And maybe I'll be so relaxed that I'll fall asleep for the rest of the day..no wait, I can't, I have two more appointments within three hours...bummer.

I've been unreasonably angry lately. I think it's a result from the lack of sleep thing. It's taking the willpower that I have left not to take it out on everyone around me. grrrr..... I'm also slowly slipping into a depression. I'd like to get out and work, make some significant money, but I still don't trust anyone with Clara (save Emily, and my mother) to watch her during the day while she's still so young. But if I don't leave soon, it will be more difficult to leave in the future. I really don't want to disrupt Clara's life with moving out of my mother's house. Moves really put a strain on kids, but living here puts a strain on me.

Mom and I are getting along better. At least now she says "I love you" at the end of phone conversations. We have an understanding..if I want her help with Clara I'll ask, and she doesn't leave a chore list for me, I do things at my own pace and rank of importance. It seems that I get more done this way when she lets me just do it instead of forcing it. She still asks me to do specific things sometimes, but that doesn't mean that they always get done.

Must visit the Bats! Meow website and order Clara the Wednesday dress. It's run bymonstermommy and has some of the cutest things...if you're a goth (or a poser). I can't wait untill they come out with more stuff, I'm sure Clara will own it all. Ahh, yes, must hit-up ladyjada and find out if the Prodigals make onesies, and of course there's the weekly trip to Goodwill for stuff.

Hi ho, hi ho, it's off to bed I go. My only hour to be lazy and without a child is over and now I must prepare for the tomorrow...hey! princessmina should be here in about twelve hours! 
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