Ouch ...
... am I wrong to feel hurt and a little bit betrayed that, even considering that tomorrow is my birthday, my own boyfriend actually made plans to stay with other friends tonight, instead of with me?
Am I just being a typical over-emotional female? Am I wrong to feel so upset? Or am I even the slightest bit justified? I know that he's probably not thinking of me; he's probably thinking of having a fun time with friends that he doesn't get to see every day. But, still, somehow that just doesn't make me feel any better at all ... as a matter of fact, it kind'a makes me feel rather inferior and worthless right now.
... I mean ... it's my birthday. It only comes once a year ... I was with him on his birthday ... why don't I rank high enough for him to be with me for mine?
Oh well. I can't think about this now. I said no drama, and I intend to stick by that rule ... I can't hold other people to a standard that I don't hold myself to in the first place. So now, I have to put this out of my mind, and just smile, and not think about it again until Monday.
Am I just being a typical over-emotional female? Am I wrong to feel so upset? Or am I even the slightest bit justified? I know that he's probably not thinking of me; he's probably thinking of having a fun time with friends that he doesn't get to see every day. But, still, somehow that just doesn't make me feel any better at all ... as a matter of fact, it kind'a makes me feel rather inferior and worthless right now.
... I mean ... it's my birthday. It only comes once a year ... I was with him on his birthday ... why don't I rank high enough for him to be with me for mine?
Oh well. I can't think about this now. I said no drama, and I intend to stick by that rule ... I can't hold other people to a standard that I don't hold myself to in the first place. So now, I have to put this out of my mind, and just smile, and not think about it again until Monday.