still water
Because I have a shopping/spending addiction and turn to buying things instead of drugs to cure my pain, I bought some new shoes...and I totally fucking love them. The picture doesnt do them justice. I saw them in the September catalouge and I was like...I have to have these. And they fit well and dont slide. Im sure wearing them hours on end wont be to comfortable, but I always change into my flats at work anyway. I need to return my BCBG ones that slide off my feet, though. I really ought to stop buying things considering IM OUT OF FUCKING MONEY. I refuse to go under $1000 in my savings. REFUSE.
We had Ultima today. Swim & Donnie got hands (yay!). On the sad side, Aadmo and I didnt get legs :( (boo!) Maybe next time. Legs have never dropped for us. So gheyyyyyy.
So today at work this lady came in looking for a watch and INSISTED it be gold & silver. I showed her the limited selection of what we had and she decided on an ESQ that she seemed to really like. Less than 3 hours later, she came back and wanted to return it. I asked why and she goes "Well Im just not sure about the gold..."
WHAT THE FUCK LADY?! YOU SAID YOU WANTED GOLD AND SILVER TOGETHER. YOU ARE FUCKING CRAZY. PLEASE SEEK HELP IMMEDEATLY. fuck.
I still dont qualify for medical at work. I was 6 hours under the minimum this month. So fuckin retarded.
I hate feeling like Im on the fence. I hate being stuck between things or stuck waiting. I dont know what the fuck to do with all mhy stuff I cant take to Austria. Do I pay movers to move it back to Arizona and put it in storage there? Do I store it here? How am I going to ship my PC? Should i leave it here and buy a new one? Then what do I do with that one...Im fucking taking it, end of story. I just dont know how cause I dont have the actual box for the CPU, only my flatscreen. fuck. plus when am I even going to go to Austria?? When should I give my 2 weeks notice? When do I tell my faggot housemate Im leaving? Im stressing so much I feel like Im going to just break down at any minute. And who knows what that even means. I cant take this much longer. I need someone to help me with this shit before I break into a total panic and just give up on all of this shit. Im almost ready to just STAY FUCKING MISERABLE here in San Fran. Im so...frustrated. Shitshitshit. SHIT.
Nothing is getting done and nothing is happening and Im just sitting in this dead water. And I want to just collapse in it.
And I fucking cant believe Pasha is gone. I randomly burst into tears about it but it also seems that part of it hasnt hit me yet. The full effect of it is yet to come, Im sure.
Please please please God, make something happen. Give me a fucking foot in the door. I dont know what to do anymore.
We had Ultima today. Swim & Donnie got hands (yay!). On the sad side, Aadmo and I didnt get legs :( (boo!) Maybe next time. Legs have never dropped for us. So gheyyyyyy.
So today at work this lady came in looking for a watch and INSISTED it be gold & silver. I showed her the limited selection of what we had and she decided on an ESQ that she seemed to really like. Less than 3 hours later, she came back and wanted to return it. I asked why and she goes "Well Im just not sure about the gold..."
WHAT THE FUCK LADY?! YOU SAID YOU WANTED GOLD AND SILVER TOGETHER. YOU ARE FUCKING CRAZY. PLEASE SEEK HELP IMMEDEATLY. fuck.
I still dont qualify for medical at work. I was 6 hours under the minimum this month. So fuckin retarded.
I hate feeling like Im on the fence. I hate being stuck between things or stuck waiting. I dont know what the fuck to do with all mhy stuff I cant take to Austria. Do I pay movers to move it back to Arizona and put it in storage there? Do I store it here? How am I going to ship my PC? Should i leave it here and buy a new one? Then what do I do with that one...Im fucking taking it, end of story. I just dont know how cause I dont have the actual box for the CPU, only my flatscreen. fuck. plus when am I even going to go to Austria?? When should I give my 2 weeks notice? When do I tell my faggot housemate Im leaving? Im stressing so much I feel like Im going to just break down at any minute. And who knows what that even means. I cant take this much longer. I need someone to help me with this shit before I break into a total panic and just give up on all of this shit. Im almost ready to just STAY FUCKING MISERABLE here in San Fran. Im so...frustrated. Shitshitshit. SHIT.
Nothing is getting done and nothing is happening and Im just sitting in this dead water. And I want to just collapse in it.
And I fucking cant believe Pasha is gone. I randomly burst into tears about it but it also seems that part of it hasnt hit me yet. The full effect of it is yet to come, Im sure.
Please please please God, make something happen. Give me a fucking foot in the door. I dont know what to do anymore.