why so GOOD Law & Order?
So I apologized to cuntface...oh I mean, my boss, for overreacting last night, though I didnt apologize for what I said. I got my requested days off as well. I also went up and had a nice long talk with Lauren from HR (she rocks). Apparently handbags is hiring! AHHHH. But I cant switch departments until I've worked in mine for 6 months. FUCKING GAY MAN, FUCKING GAY. Oh and we have a new girl named Cassie. Haven't met her yet. I hope shes not an old, slow, retard like Kathleen. Speaking of which, Lauren was like "On a side note, can you tell me more about Kathleen?" I think they might be firing her. Shes so slow I want to fucking smack her and tell her how useless she is. God forbid I ever get slow and old, cause Im sure what Im saying will come back at me 3-fold.
I am so broke right now...its so bad. So bad. Im not sure what to do about it right now, either. I need groceries but I work the next 5 days and can't go...so I have to buy lunch, which I cant afford. And I wish I had the ability to just NOT EAT, but I dont. I could cook some stuff but I have no fucking time with the way my schedule is right now. Not only am I broke but Im about $1200 in debt. I have money in savings but its down to like $1200 as well, and it used to be so much...I cant keep taking money from it. Mum also wants me to take on my cell phone bill...which I hella cant afford. At all. At least not for another month or two. This trip to Arizona I just took is gonna kill me. This next paycheck will be like, $300, which is nothing, and then the next paycheck goes to rent. Feck...I need a sugar daddy. ahhahahah.
Matt has his own guitar now. It should be out for sale in like 2 months he said. How cool that I know someone who was in guitar world and now has his own fucking guitar that people can buy...its crazy wierd. And apparently, it changes colors...or something. I forget.
Toufies friend died. Im so sad for him. I dont even have anything else to say about it, cause nothing feels right to say...I never know what to say when someone is going through that. When Katie died it seemed like everything anyone said was fucking wrong. ESPECIALLY when they said "Shes in a better place". Fuck you. Youre a fucking idiot if you say that about someone so young. Maybe someone whos old and has cancer or something and is SUFFERING...but she was 19 years old.
Long entries lately. About nothing Im sure. I might write it but I never remember it. My fucking shoulder is KILLING me and its just getting worse. Not sure what to do about it either.
My resume has now officially been submitted for the original job in Austria. Im still applying for the other one as well, though. I forget who the first one is for but the more recent one is for an Ambassador, so that could be cool. I need to start filling out this 19 page security form, though...ew.
I hate being back here in San Francisco. And not having a car. And my dogs... :( or my mum. or my family. I didnt cry at all in Arizona except when I had to say goodbye to my dogs. But I cry every day here. That says something.
I cant sleep lately. Maybe I should up the Simply Sleep? Dunno if that would help though. Theres too much goddamn light in this fucking room. Its so annoying. Im getting frustrated so I should stop talking about this. I want to live in a fucking cave where its dark and quiet and no one to bother me. And then die like a day later cause Id get too bored after much more than that.
Ok. Im miserable. Time for bed.
I am so broke right now...its so bad. So bad. Im not sure what to do about it right now, either. I need groceries but I work the next 5 days and can't go...so I have to buy lunch, which I cant afford. And I wish I had the ability to just NOT EAT, but I dont. I could cook some stuff but I have no fucking time with the way my schedule is right now. Not only am I broke but Im about $1200 in debt. I have money in savings but its down to like $1200 as well, and it used to be so much...I cant keep taking money from it. Mum also wants me to take on my cell phone bill...which I hella cant afford. At all. At least not for another month or two. This trip to Arizona I just took is gonna kill me. This next paycheck will be like, $300, which is nothing, and then the next paycheck goes to rent. Feck...I need a sugar daddy. ahhahahah.
Matt has his own guitar now. It should be out for sale in like 2 months he said. How cool that I know someone who was in guitar world and now has his own fucking guitar that people can buy...its crazy wierd. And apparently, it changes colors...or something. I forget.
Toufies friend died. Im so sad for him. I dont even have anything else to say about it, cause nothing feels right to say...I never know what to say when someone is going through that. When Katie died it seemed like everything anyone said was fucking wrong. ESPECIALLY when they said "Shes in a better place". Fuck you. Youre a fucking idiot if you say that about someone so young. Maybe someone whos old and has cancer or something and is SUFFERING...but she was 19 years old.
Long entries lately. About nothing Im sure. I might write it but I never remember it. My fucking shoulder is KILLING me and its just getting worse. Not sure what to do about it either.
My resume has now officially been submitted for the original job in Austria. Im still applying for the other one as well, though. I forget who the first one is for but the more recent one is for an Ambassador, so that could be cool. I need to start filling out this 19 page security form, though...ew.
I hate being back here in San Francisco. And not having a car. And my dogs... :( or my mum. or my family. I didnt cry at all in Arizona except when I had to say goodbye to my dogs. But I cry every day here. That says something.
I cant sleep lately. Maybe I should up the Simply Sleep? Dunno if that would help though. Theres too much goddamn light in this fucking room. Its so annoying. Im getting frustrated so I should stop talking about this. I want to live in a fucking cave where its dark and quiet and no one to bother me. And then die like a day later cause Id get too bored after much more than that.
Ok. Im miserable. Time for bed.