testing limits...
Its been a hell of a day. Worst in a while.
Some of you may have been aware that i've been stressed and down for some time now. Always am when im unemployed. More so with other stresses piling on.
So. The great job i've been waiting to hear on? Heard. No dice. Great way to start my day.
Living situation continues to be unstable and seriously worrisome. More on that later after I discuss with those involved, but I should say: its been about 52 degrees in my living room all day. Whee.
Lost another good friend to leaving the state toady.
Mediated some disagreement between really good friends involving another friend, and about my only advice was legal action vis-a-vis the outside party.
Argued with my prime and managed to make her cry. Go me.
And to the friend of mine whos going to texas for a special program to assist in not self-injuring and suicidal tendencies? I wish you the best, i really really do. I kinda wish i could go too, right now.
Right. Everyone else, as usual, has chosen now-ish to fall apart too. So, I carry on. I will make it till everyone else is ok, and my own future is settled for a while, because i have to. But until then, please, understand I am under tremendous strain. If I need to help with something, or even can, please let me know, way to help firstish, and i will. If I cant, perhaps telling me later might be best. And if there is some way you can help me, please, by all means, do. I may not be entirely as thankful as i should be right now, and for that I'm sorry, but i promise, I will be when ive stabilized.
I spent most of today two seconds from collapse. Now I am self-medicated with the great stress-stabilizer, alchohol. But even that is a source of worry. I have been drinking too much too often as of late. So ill have to quit that soon.
and now, drunken slumber. i hope.
Some of you may have been aware that i've been stressed and down for some time now. Always am when im unemployed. More so with other stresses piling on.
So. The great job i've been waiting to hear on? Heard. No dice. Great way to start my day.
Living situation continues to be unstable and seriously worrisome. More on that later after I discuss with those involved, but I should say: its been about 52 degrees in my living room all day. Whee.
Lost another good friend to leaving the state toady.
Mediated some disagreement between really good friends involving another friend, and about my only advice was legal action vis-a-vis the outside party.
Argued with my prime and managed to make her cry. Go me.
And to the friend of mine whos going to texas for a special program to assist in not self-injuring and suicidal tendencies? I wish you the best, i really really do. I kinda wish i could go too, right now.
Right. Everyone else, as usual, has chosen now-ish to fall apart too. So, I carry on. I will make it till everyone else is ok, and my own future is settled for a while, because i have to. But until then, please, understand I am under tremendous strain. If I need to help with something, or even can, please let me know, way to help firstish, and i will. If I cant, perhaps telling me later might be best. And if there is some way you can help me, please, by all means, do. I may not be entirely as thankful as i should be right now, and for that I'm sorry, but i promise, I will be when ive stabilized.
I spent most of today two seconds from collapse. Now I am self-medicated with the great stress-stabilizer, alchohol. But even that is a source of worry. I have been drinking too much too often as of late. So ill have to quit that soon.
and now, drunken slumber. i hope.