Sentimental Reflections
Since I've been bombarding you guys with wedding-related stuff, I thought I would give you a change in pace... Ahaha~
Anyways, this is something I have never shared with anyone before - for certain reasons.
I was cleaning my room these last couple days (and still need to finish) because my relatives are coming to visit this weekend. They were supposed to come last weekend, but changed their mind. Whatever the case, they have never been to our house before so they'll definitely want a "grand tour". Don't exactly want to show them the chaotic mess that is typically my room... Not to mention that my mom would probably slaughter me if I did XD
Along with finding my MIA Japanese yen, I "found" some old stuff from an... Ex-friend. I didn't really "find" it because I always knew it was there, but basically I pulled it out to look at it again. The only person who should know who I'm referring to is seifrus since this is something from before most of your times (in terms of knowing me).
Long story short, he was someone I met on the same forum that I met seifrus at. If I had to describe our relationship, it would be divorced one. Like a marriage with all its phases, we had our 'honeymoon' phase, the bickering and makeup phase and finally the divorce phase. Basically, we had a love-hate relationship with each other. When we got along, things were fine, but when we were fighting/mad at each other, then the sky might as well have fallen down.
I will admit that I was to blame, but at the same time, so was he... Lol, like that sounds convincing. Basically, we both did things that were not "healthy" for the relationship.
At the time, I was much more interested in hanging out with my crush and neglected my online relationships. In turn, he was quite demanding in relations to what I was comfortable with doing. Not anything bad! Just that every time I was online, it was like "Can we voice chat? Can we voice chat?" And then when we did... There was really nothing to talk about, so it was a lot of awkward silence. Not to mention, like my horoscope sign (Aquarius) attests to, I have a flighty personality when it comes to doing things that I don't want to. Like the more you push me, the more I will resent that fact...
Needless to say, things did not end well. But while we were in a relationship, we had actually exchanged mailing addresses and actually exchanged a few things. He sent me a birthday present and he also sent me some random stuff. We even exchanged cell phone numbers. (I have no idea what I sent him, if anything at all ^^;; )
He was a writer like I am, but with a different focus? My memory is a little hazy on that detail. One thing I remember clearly is that he spent a lot of time editing one of my short stories that I had written for one of our forum contests. Also, one of the things he sent me was a copy of his screen play that he had written at the time - for a class I believe.
I never got around to reading it until last night... And this was from 2007... Funny how I really disliked him at the time, but things fade and you look back on the relationship with a fond memory. At least, I'm at that stage now.
So I read the screen play. Honestly, I know nothing about that style of writing. I don't know what I was thinking really, but mostly that I should read it as it was fully intended for. He also sent me some miscellaneous CDs - stuff he had burned thinking I would enjoy it. Unfortunately, I had taken them out some time in the past thinking to actually sit down and go through the stuff; which I never did. Now I have no idea where I've placed them. (This really is a common reoccurrence from cleaning my room.)
haha, the history isn't really what I wanted to share, but it's kind of necessary. Basically, the birthday present he sent me is a picture that he drew of me. I don't expect anyone to get the "title", except maybe seifrus - if you can remember what it's from...
Click on the image to get the full-sized one.
Lol~ Yes, it says "Moon Bunny...?" on the top. It also has a crease in the middle since it was folded when it was sent. (That's a whole other story in and of itself, if anyone really wants to know.)
The ironic part is the letter itself. Right after the greeting/salutation, the first sentences say:
Yup. It's all pretty explanatory, really. I'm glad that we're not fighting at the moment. I certainly hope that doesn't change before this arrives. XD
And the last part before his signature says:
Speaking of which, I love you. *hugs*
And look at how things ended... =_=;; He also sent me Tim Tams, which were really quite delicious. They were like chocolate biscuits of some sort.
Anyways, though we're not exactly friends anymore, I don't have the heart to throw anything out. Especially because it's also a reminder to me of what a terrible person I am capable of being.
Things are obviously different and things have changed since it has been 3 years since that time. I don't know if I would get along with him now if I were to meet him again - assuming that he would even care to. But I definitely look back on this with sentimental feelings. Stupid how friendships can be ruined over the stupidest things, just because both sides are too stubborn...
And that's it for my sentimental ramblings. I don't know why I've been in "that mood" these last few days. I just am I guess...
Oh, and just because I was ranting away about it last week... Lol~ Work is better now. Things are going to get busier again and though I don't particularly get along with him, I'm still going to try my best to not be so... Judgmental and grudge-y (which is the best way to describe it). Even if I have to "wipe the slate clean" every day, it will just have to be done.
In the long run, things are improving for the company and I really would like to stick around to see how things go - despite all the issues of tight financial situations and annoying-ish (trying to wipe that thought from my mind) coworkers.
Anyways, this is something I have never shared with anyone before - for certain reasons.
I was cleaning my room these last couple days (and still need to finish) because my relatives are coming to visit this weekend. They were supposed to come last weekend, but changed their mind. Whatever the case, they have never been to our house before so they'll definitely want a "grand tour". Don't exactly want to show them the chaotic mess that is typically my room... Not to mention that my mom would probably slaughter me if I did XD
Along with finding my MIA Japanese yen, I "found" some old stuff from an... Ex-friend. I didn't really "find" it because I always knew it was there, but basically I pulled it out to look at it again. The only person who should know who I'm referring to is seifrus since this is something from before most of your times (in terms of knowing me).
Long story short, he was someone I met on the same forum that I met seifrus at. If I had to describe our relationship, it would be divorced one. Like a marriage with all its phases, we had our 'honeymoon' phase, the bickering and makeup phase and finally the divorce phase. Basically, we had a love-hate relationship with each other. When we got along, things were fine, but when we were fighting/mad at each other, then the sky might as well have fallen down.
I will admit that I was to blame, but at the same time, so was he... Lol, like that sounds convincing. Basically, we both did things that were not "healthy" for the relationship.
At the time, I was much more interested in hanging out with my crush and neglected my online relationships. In turn, he was quite demanding in relations to what I was comfortable with doing. Not anything bad! Just that every time I was online, it was like "Can we voice chat? Can we voice chat?" And then when we did... There was really nothing to talk about, so it was a lot of awkward silence. Not to mention, like my horoscope sign (Aquarius) attests to, I have a flighty personality when it comes to doing things that I don't want to. Like the more you push me, the more I will resent that fact...
Needless to say, things did not end well. But while we were in a relationship, we had actually exchanged mailing addresses and actually exchanged a few things. He sent me a birthday present and he also sent me some random stuff. We even exchanged cell phone numbers. (I have no idea what I sent him, if anything at all ^^;; )
He was a writer like I am, but with a different focus? My memory is a little hazy on that detail. One thing I remember clearly is that he spent a lot of time editing one of my short stories that I had written for one of our forum contests. Also, one of the things he sent me was a copy of his screen play that he had written at the time - for a class I believe.
I never got around to reading it until last night... And this was from 2007... Funny how I really disliked him at the time, but things fade and you look back on the relationship with a fond memory. At least, I'm at that stage now.
So I read the screen play. Honestly, I know nothing about that style of writing. I don't know what I was thinking really, but mostly that I should read it as it was fully intended for. He also sent me some miscellaneous CDs - stuff he had burned thinking I would enjoy it. Unfortunately, I had taken them out some time in the past thinking to actually sit down and go through the stuff; which I never did. Now I have no idea where I've placed them. (This really is a common reoccurrence from cleaning my room.)
haha, the history isn't really what I wanted to share, but it's kind of necessary. Basically, the birthday present he sent me is a picture that he drew of me. I don't expect anyone to get the "title", except maybe seifrus - if you can remember what it's from...
Click on the image to get the full-sized one.
Lol~ Yes, it says "Moon Bunny...?" on the top. It also has a crease in the middle since it was folded when it was sent. (That's a whole other story in and of itself, if anyone really wants to know.)
The ironic part is the letter itself. Right after the greeting/salutation, the first sentences say:
Yup. It's all pretty explanatory, really. I'm glad that we're not fighting at the moment. I certainly hope that doesn't change before this arrives. XD
And the last part before his signature says:
Speaking of which, I love you. *hugs*
And look at how things ended... =_=;; He also sent me Tim Tams, which were really quite delicious. They were like chocolate biscuits of some sort.
Anyways, though we're not exactly friends anymore, I don't have the heart to throw anything out. Especially because it's also a reminder to me of what a terrible person I am capable of being.
Things are obviously different and things have changed since it has been 3 years since that time. I don't know if I would get along with him now if I were to meet him again - assuming that he would even care to. But I definitely look back on this with sentimental feelings. Stupid how friendships can be ruined over the stupidest things, just because both sides are too stubborn...
And that's it for my sentimental ramblings. I don't know why I've been in "that mood" these last few days. I just am I guess...
Oh, and just because I was ranting away about it last week... Lol~ Work is better now. Things are going to get busier again and though I don't particularly get along with him, I'm still going to try my best to not be so... Judgmental and grudge-y (which is the best way to describe it). Even if I have to "wipe the slate clean" every day, it will just have to be done.
In the long run, things are improving for the company and I really would like to stick around to see how things go - despite all the issues of tight financial situations and annoying-ish (trying to wipe that thought from my mind) coworkers.