Here we go, again
Jeez, the timing is just about perfect: almost a year ago I was laid off from my full-time job, which I had held for about three years; this job loss wasn't due to an economic downturn for the company I worked for, but was a loss of the contract under which we worked-the company decided not to re-bid for a job which had been basically created by them and which they had held for 10 years. I take the re-education benefits (which I failed at miserably,) and with Unemployment and limited hours at my part-time, managed to "survive" the next 8 months.
I then receive an email from another contractor (see where this is going?) to work in another office where I hadn't really wanted to return to, after having worked there several years ago in basically the same capacity. This was at the end of October, 2009.
Fast forward to this morning-I receive a call from the sub-contractor to the contractor, whom I work for, regarding my unsatisfactory performance standards, which I have been trying my damnedest to meet, despite the carpal tunnel and the uncomfortable chairs and the micro-managing that comes with the territory, saying that I have until March 11th to meet those standards. In theory, I have 4 weeks; in reality, I have 2 weeks if I'm lucky.
I should have seen this coming-when I picked up the phone this morning, my first question was "Are you firing me?" Why do I allow myself to go into these situations again and again? I should have been looking for another job all along; instead I let myself get lulled into complacency again, fooling myself into thinking that this situation was going to be any different than any of the others. I know I can meet the standards: I did last Wednesday, but haven't been able to since then, but I have been very close for most of that time.
So now, this afternoon, I have to report to work and not allow this to screw with my mindset-I'm sooo close to those numbers, looks like I'll be working through my breaks to get them, because this is what it has come down to-I'm so friggin' tired of repeating the same dance steps and hoping for a waltz, but still ending up in a line dance.
Sorry for the rant. I'm going to go get "pretty" for work; enjoy the rest of your day and thanks for listening.
Lettie
I then receive an email from another contractor (see where this is going?) to work in another office where I hadn't really wanted to return to, after having worked there several years ago in basically the same capacity. This was at the end of October, 2009.
Fast forward to this morning-I receive a call from the sub-contractor to the contractor, whom I work for, regarding my unsatisfactory performance standards, which I have been trying my damnedest to meet, despite the carpal tunnel and the uncomfortable chairs and the micro-managing that comes with the territory, saying that I have until March 11th to meet those standards. In theory, I have 4 weeks; in reality, I have 2 weeks if I'm lucky.
I should have seen this coming-when I picked up the phone this morning, my first question was "Are you firing me?" Why do I allow myself to go into these situations again and again? I should have been looking for another job all along; instead I let myself get lulled into complacency again, fooling myself into thinking that this situation was going to be any different than any of the others. I know I can meet the standards: I did last Wednesday, but haven't been able to since then, but I have been very close for most of that time.
So now, this afternoon, I have to report to work and not allow this to screw with my mindset-I'm sooo close to those numbers, looks like I'll be working through my breaks to get them, because this is what it has come down to-I'm so friggin' tired of repeating the same dance steps and hoping for a waltz, but still ending up in a line dance.
Sorry for the rant. I'm going to go get "pretty" for work; enjoy the rest of your day and thanks for listening.
Lettie