.....
"So I speak, to you in riddles
cuz my words get the my way
I spoke the whole thing to my head
and feel it wash away
Cuz I can't take anymore of this
I want to come apart
and dig myself a little hole
inside your precious heart....
Cuz it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said..." - Staind
Didn't last long...
Good mood...
Yea...it's gone.
I just so upset....and probably about something really stupid. But to me, it's all I have right now.
So damn lonely. So damn bored. So damn self loathing. Everyday I just sit here.....
Alone.
Nothing to do, all night, everynight. Here....alone. Computer...or everquest....well...not tonight.
I need out of this house. Out of this dungeon....out of the prison of my mind.
Locked in the thoughts of endless sorrow, past pain, feelings of rejection, of being unloved, of the person I want but barely even sees me, of everything my life that is agony.
I want so much...
Achieve so little....
I need so much....
Recieve so little....
Giving is my flaw.
Chivalry is my crime.
Selflessness has left me nothing.
I want to be angry at everyone.
Hate everyone around me.
Then maybe being lonely wouldn't hurt so much
But I only end up hating myself.
Making the pain all the deeper.
[sigh]
Wish I could just fade.
cuz my words get the my way
I spoke the whole thing to my head
and feel it wash away
Cuz I can't take anymore of this
I want to come apart
and dig myself a little hole
inside your precious heart....
Cuz it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said..." - Staind
Didn't last long...
Good mood...
Yea...it's gone.
I just so upset....and probably about something really stupid. But to me, it's all I have right now.
So damn lonely. So damn bored. So damn self loathing. Everyday I just sit here.....
Alone.
Nothing to do, all night, everynight. Here....alone. Computer...or everquest....well...not tonight.
I need out of this house. Out of this dungeon....out of the prison of my mind.
Locked in the thoughts of endless sorrow, past pain, feelings of rejection, of being unloved, of the person I want but barely even sees me, of everything my life that is agony.
I want so much...
Achieve so little....
I need so much....
Recieve so little....
Giving is my flaw.
Chivalry is my crime.
Selflessness has left me nothing.
I want to be angry at everyone.
Hate everyone around me.
Then maybe being lonely wouldn't hurt so much
But I only end up hating myself.
Making the pain all the deeper.
[sigh]
Wish I could just fade.