yeeeaaa....
"He's fast asleep again
and he wonders when the pain will end
the cuts they may run deeper
than his arms will ever show.
He looks with his tired eyes
at all the people hypnotized
and he wonders what can save him from his self created hell.
And he says I swear I'm not the devil, who do you think I am? I swear I'm not the devil."
A long long day....and I feel I'm being avoided, felt it for s few days, but now I believe it is for good reason.....and I am not bitter about it.
Mythical Journeys this weekend and I am beyond glad. Very psyched about a plan I have devised in my head for the last few events....but mostly I need a break.
A break of Work.
A break from Home
A break from the reality of my life.
To be someone else....even if for only a few days could mean the difference between my sanity and a complete mental breakdown.
I need a release....a valve. Something other than rage and hate to display....to show the world. But I cannot, I am locked tight. For years I kept it all bottled up, and only to my wife did I show anything other than my everyday self....only she knows....and she spit it in my face.
Now its worse than ever. I cannot trust anyone....I will not.
Two more days....then I can at least unleash the hell of my mind and the fury of my emotions on others.....in a safe and undestructive way....lucky for them.
and he wonders when the pain will end
the cuts they may run deeper
than his arms will ever show.
He looks with his tired eyes
at all the people hypnotized
and he wonders what can save him from his self created hell.
And he says I swear I'm not the devil, who do you think I am? I swear I'm not the devil."
A long long day....and I feel I'm being avoided, felt it for s few days, but now I believe it is for good reason.....and I am not bitter about it.
Mythical Journeys this weekend and I am beyond glad. Very psyched about a plan I have devised in my head for the last few events....but mostly I need a break.
A break of Work.
A break from Home
A break from the reality of my life.
To be someone else....even if for only a few days could mean the difference between my sanity and a complete mental breakdown.
I need a release....a valve. Something other than rage and hate to display....to show the world. But I cannot, I am locked tight. For years I kept it all bottled up, and only to my wife did I show anything other than my everyday self....only she knows....and she spit it in my face.
Now its worse than ever. I cannot trust anyone....I will not.
Two more days....then I can at least unleash the hell of my mind and the fury of my emotions on others.....in a safe and undestructive way....lucky for them.