oh my god, I'm so pissed right now, it's not even funny.
I'm broke. soooooo broke. I've been frivolous like a moron *scratch that* LIKE A FUCKING DOLT, and now I'm swimming in overdraft fees. I'm very pissed off with myself right now. is it REALLY necessary to charge $35 each time? I mean, wtf. we spend more money recovering that big-ass fee than we do actually recovering the overdraft itself. I made my mom take my debit card away from me. the only thing I'll be spending in my checking account is paying my cell phone bill and to take $20 cash out to cover me for two weeks, which is the time between paychecks. I USED to have almost 1200 in savings, but now it's around 4...hundred...dollars. I'm so disappointed in myself right now. the rest of my paychecks? straight to savings, and then, car. my only priorities right now are:
car.
hopefully becoming a 4 star csr
keeping up with my cell phone bills.
which, on that note, kids-I'll keep posting my weekly schedule in hopes that someone will be able to hang when I can, but it'll mostly be moviefesting at one's home for a while.
so, in a lighter vein...*cough*
I haven't seen my room in its entirety in...months, suffice to say...it's trashed. piles and piles of stuff. I'm going through some of my shelves and stuff and really going to see, what have I not touched within the past year thusly can get da FUCK OUT of my room, making space for other things. kind of discouraging things from staying on my floor. I'm also going to sort my clothes, which are not this season, and I can put away somewheres. I MIGHT even clean under my bed/tables. I dunno. It depends on how tired I am and how much on fire I'll be tomorrow/today. then, later today, I'll check on all those pending things on my account and see how much more fucked I am than I am at this very moment. Then, I'll file my tax forms, get that out of the way, and go grocery shopping with my mom, getting me some shit I can bring to work and prevent me from spending even more at work. Like, food. and drink. I'll have had my taxes done, checked on my accounts, cried tears of shame, shopped for food not using my money, and see the floor of my room. I'm not too big on that 'chi' stuff, but I do feel that all that crap in my room is blocking an energy flow/keeping newer, nicer, fresher, and more pleasant energies from circulating my room. I've been having two of the most vivid and horrifying nightmares I've ever had over these past several months. I say two because when I sleep (if and when I do, at that) it's either one nightmare or the other. both make me wake up in tears. I hate it.
so...there. I'm on the way FINALLY to getting some actually rather important shit done in my life. go me.
car.
hopefully becoming a 4 star csr
keeping up with my cell phone bills.
which, on that note, kids-I'll keep posting my weekly schedule in hopes that someone will be able to hang when I can, but it'll mostly be moviefesting at one's home for a while.
so, in a lighter vein...*cough*
I haven't seen my room in its entirety in...months, suffice to say...it's trashed. piles and piles of stuff. I'm going through some of my shelves and stuff and really going to see, what have I not touched within the past year thusly can get da FUCK OUT of my room, making space for other things. kind of discouraging things from staying on my floor. I'm also going to sort my clothes, which are not this season, and I can put away somewheres. I MIGHT even clean under my bed/tables. I dunno. It depends on how tired I am and how much on fire I'll be tomorrow/today. then, later today, I'll check on all those pending things on my account and see how much more fucked I am than I am at this very moment. Then, I'll file my tax forms, get that out of the way, and go grocery shopping with my mom, getting me some shit I can bring to work and prevent me from spending even more at work. Like, food. and drink. I'll have had my taxes done, checked on my accounts, cried tears of shame, shopped for food not using my money, and see the floor of my room. I'm not too big on that 'chi' stuff, but I do feel that all that crap in my room is blocking an energy flow/keeping newer, nicer, fresher, and more pleasant energies from circulating my room. I've been having two of the most vivid and horrifying nightmares I've ever had over these past several months. I say two because when I sleep (if and when I do, at that) it's either one nightmare or the other. both make me wake up in tears. I hate it.
so...there. I'm on the way FINALLY to getting some actually rather important shit done in my life. go me.