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Today I went to Mchi to be Claudia's model and I saw Kris and Letty. It was pretty cool. I also have to go back and continue being Claudia's model. I just dont want anything done to my hair. I really want it cut though. I want it really short but oh well I dont think Im going to do it. So letty came over and I taught her how to play pool and hopefully Miguel can teach her the finer points of the game because Im not really an authority figure on the game. I was also reassured in some thoughts I had today. It made me cry twice. I cant believe I found out so late. I prayed that nothing would happen to him but I dont know how he's doing and I would really love to get in contact with him, but he's still not talking to me. If I could just talk to him I would say how sorry I was with complete honesty and tell him how much I miss him and that it was a complete mistake. I wish he would just talk to me. But as far as I know he'll never talk to me again. But i dont deserve anything less than that, I guess........I've never stopped holding the bear.