some confessions...
1. I like other kinds of asian food. I like chinese, Thai, Indian, Vietnamese, Afghani. I like real Greek and Italian food, but dammit traditional korean food is all slimy, either really bland, or ridiculously spicy. Im not the only person who's said korean food is kind of unappitizing. Even if it did taste good, it's presented in seperate bowls by itself which makes each individual thing look kinda weird and makes it difficult to eat as you keep having to pick at seperate bowls all around you. Well I do like the rice and the pumpkin, some noodles, and sometimes the fish.
2. I have no idea what the hell I'm doing and am nervous I will be a bad teacher that will speak too quickly and quietly and my middle school girls will hate me. I guess wanting to care is better than some people though...
3. Sometimes it amazes you what kind of people sign up to live in another country for a year. Wouldn't you usually assume they'd be all open, friendly people? Well a lot are, but walkind around a korean city with a Jackass who keeps trying to shake hands with everyone, yelling at koreans in English and screaming si and konichwa is pretty grating. I guess it's how sometimes the people you meet who work for nonprofits or volunteer are some of the biggest assholes ever. Though i guess its only the negatives that stand out. I'd say most people are very sweet.
4. It is not children who stare at you the most. It is old men and the female half of young couples. I don't get it. Also young Korean couples are like one entity. Not very affectionate but when they walk around they will not let go of each other's hands.
5. Most Koreans are very quiet or very friendly. The cab drivers yesterday gave us discounts, told my friend they loved her and one invited us out to lunch...
6. Looking and being young in Korean means everyone wants to do everything for you and they expect you to be a moron. Which is good and bad...mostly good though i guess. I hope my co-teacher doesn't think I'm an idiot. I'm glad she doesnt have children and her husband works alot so if she helps me, I'm not taking from her family time. I don't get why they think I look so young. I think Koreans look young and pretty and I don't look that young in comparison.
7. Speaking of that, most Korean women are very pretty and very feminine. I feel very manly around them. People keep teasing about a Korean man, but I sincerly doubt I'd be attractive. They also have some 1950's ideas about gender...
7. Korean Hangul are not that difficult, but the words themselves are very hard for me to absorb. I'm not learning as quickly as I would like.
8. What is it with overly sensitive men who are awkward looking and who consider themselves very unique and intellectual and liking me and over complimenting me or pretend that shortly after meeting me they know what kind of person I am and telling me I'm just as a unique and sensitive soul as them? Why do I attract men who look to me for reassurance that their trying so hard to be intellectual is working? Ahh it's a certain type of person that I can't fully describe, but you'd know them if you met them. I'm not saying I want a jackass or an idiot, but why so many wimps?
8. The accomodations in the love motel I am staying at are some of the nicest I've ever had. I can even go buy a dildo in a vending machine...Though, being the only english speaker, the only white person, one of the youngest people in the motel, the only person staying for more than one night in a room where everything is set up for a couple and you can't call home as there's no skype on the working computer and people from home haven't sent any emails lately...well it's very lonely.
9. Dreaming that you got back to the states but have to be in work on monday but you dont have the time or money for the plane to be there and then constantly telling yourself that waking up is the only way back to Korea is very disorienting...
2. I have no idea what the hell I'm doing and am nervous I will be a bad teacher that will speak too quickly and quietly and my middle school girls will hate me. I guess wanting to care is better than some people though...
3. Sometimes it amazes you what kind of people sign up to live in another country for a year. Wouldn't you usually assume they'd be all open, friendly people? Well a lot are, but walkind around a korean city with a Jackass who keeps trying to shake hands with everyone, yelling at koreans in English and screaming si and konichwa is pretty grating. I guess it's how sometimes the people you meet who work for nonprofits or volunteer are some of the biggest assholes ever. Though i guess its only the negatives that stand out. I'd say most people are very sweet.
4. It is not children who stare at you the most. It is old men and the female half of young couples. I don't get it. Also young Korean couples are like one entity. Not very affectionate but when they walk around they will not let go of each other's hands.
5. Most Koreans are very quiet or very friendly. The cab drivers yesterday gave us discounts, told my friend they loved her and one invited us out to lunch...
6. Looking and being young in Korean means everyone wants to do everything for you and they expect you to be a moron. Which is good and bad...mostly good though i guess. I hope my co-teacher doesn't think I'm an idiot. I'm glad she doesnt have children and her husband works alot so if she helps me, I'm not taking from her family time. I don't get why they think I look so young. I think Koreans look young and pretty and I don't look that young in comparison.
7. Speaking of that, most Korean women are very pretty and very feminine. I feel very manly around them. People keep teasing about a Korean man, but I sincerly doubt I'd be attractive. They also have some 1950's ideas about gender...
7. Korean Hangul are not that difficult, but the words themselves are very hard for me to absorb. I'm not learning as quickly as I would like.
8. What is it with overly sensitive men who are awkward looking and who consider themselves very unique and intellectual and liking me and over complimenting me or pretend that shortly after meeting me they know what kind of person I am and telling me I'm just as a unique and sensitive soul as them? Why do I attract men who look to me for reassurance that their trying so hard to be intellectual is working? Ahh it's a certain type of person that I can't fully describe, but you'd know them if you met them. I'm not saying I want a jackass or an idiot, but why so many wimps?
8. The accomodations in the love motel I am staying at are some of the nicest I've ever had. I can even go buy a dildo in a vending machine...Though, being the only english speaker, the only white person, one of the youngest people in the motel, the only person staying for more than one night in a room where everything is set up for a couple and you can't call home as there's no skype on the working computer and people from home haven't sent any emails lately...well it's very lonely.
9. Dreaming that you got back to the states but have to be in work on monday but you dont have the time or money for the plane to be there and then constantly telling yourself that waking up is the only way back to Korea is very disorienting...