Father's Day was so hard
Yesterday was one of the most difficult days for us. We went back to church Sunday, and of course the service revolved around fathers. I spent so much time crying, and I could tell it was affecting Michael. After everything was over, we talked to so close friends of ours, and they're all so supportive and caring that I cried even more. I said maybe it wasn't a good idea to go back on Father's Day. The fact that my Dad lives 2,000 miles away doesn't help. Michael wanted to be a father as much as I wanted to be a mother, and it just hurts so badly. He's wanted children since high school. I'm so scared that we won't be able to have a healthy baby. Fear is a very powerful thing in the life of a Christian. It sucks that we have to battle against it like we do.