When At Last I Find You, Your Song Will Fill The Air
Confusion is just a thing that sets in. Long lost memories and feelings stirring, while new ones are conjured simultaneously. Lovely. Perfect timing too...Of all things, I don't think I need love during my junior year. It's hard enough. But unfortunately, I can't live without being near people, near someone. What can I say? I guess I'm just a social person. I wish I didn't want it. It just adds to the already chaotic struggle between mind and matter. Self-control. Mind power. My ultimate philosophy fails me. While I'm still controlling my immune system with my mind, other things that I once controlled easily are falling away. I can't concentrate on my school work for very long and things are falling apart. I don't want a repeat of last year and, while I doubt it will repeat, I'm having those same early difficulties...Mind over matter...mind over matter...
I think I might be developing some sort of mental sickness. If not that, at least a physical sickness. I can't breathe very well and I frequently have coughing fits. It's been going on for months now. I've definitely developed a fear of closed spaces and big crowds. I can barely stand being in my room without the window open. My breathing is worse when I'm in those scenarios. I don't know what's wrong with me.
Can't one freaking day go by without the drama?? Damnit...one god damn day.
I think I might be developing some sort of mental sickness. If not that, at least a physical sickness. I can't breathe very well and I frequently have coughing fits. It's been going on for months now. I've definitely developed a fear of closed spaces and big crowds. I can barely stand being in my room without the window open. My breathing is worse when I'm in those scenarios. I don't know what's wrong with me.
Can't one freaking day go by without the drama?? Damnit...one god damn day.