Moody Blues...
I wish I could go to sleep right now, and maybe that's because I stayed up too late at the sleepover last night, but more because I'm just exhausted with this term already. The webpage I'm being paid to do drove me up the wall this week, and with my luck, probably isn't even done yet. I wish I'd never committed to it, but that may change when I actually get paid. After all, money in hand tends to negate previous stress.
Computer science is hellbent on making sure I get no sleep this term - I was up till 2am and waking up at 7am at least two nights last week, just to get my homework assignment done, and was looking forward to having the weekend to relax, enjoy SquirrelCon, and sleep. But then I found out I have another assignment due Monday that I have no idea how to do. As always, my own fault for not checking the due date, but I really wish he would stop arbitrarily giving us different amounts of time to complete projects.
Today, though, I just feel like crying and I can't say why. I feel like there are so many factors in my life that I can't control right now, and that makes me feel really helpless. My computer won't start up and I feel like an idiot because I can't fix it. What kind of computer science major can't fix her own computer? I'm also worried that I'm just piling too many things onto my plate, and it's going to fall and I'm going to fuck it all up. Or maybe it won't, and I'll get through it all and just pile it even higher next time. I need to learn how to say no.
I did have fun at the SAI sleepover last night though, so thanks to everyone who came and made it so enjoyable. I love having such wonderful sisters.
Warnings:
I'm going home this weekend, to see Gary and his new puppy and to tell my parents what I want to keep and what they can throw away when they move.
My computer is down, so reaching me may be a delayed process.
Expect me to be in the SMC lab a good portion of this weekend, sadly.