inspired!

[aerdna]

ever since i've gone back to school, i've been reading voraciously and doing a lot of thinking. i want to write again. i want to write enough to fill a book. the variety of experiences i've had over the past few years could be an interesting base for a series of short stories. at the very least, it could be a cathartic experience.  yesterday i had a major realization - i can use my tarot cards to create characters and a framework for situations! sheesh, why didn't i think of this before? and of course i don't have my cards with me, so my grandiose idea will have to wait for a few days.

in other news, i can't stop obsessively knitting and crocheting. when i'm not knitting, i need to crochet, and vice versa. i bought circular knitting needles in order to make a hat. i've actually knitted the hat about three times now, but as soon as i finish the hat, i immediately pull it out and start over. i can't stop thinking about knits and purls, and how many stitches i need to cast on. every time i start over i re-make the hat a little differently. it's almost a compulsion. but then, i've noticed that when i'm stressed in life or certain things are out of my control, as a reaction i need to be able to control *something*,  which usually ends up with me needing to arrange things or have them in a certain order. i can see this in myself but have trouble stopping. like the fact that yesterday i arranged my simpsons DVDs by season, and then realizing maybe i should arrange them color instead. and once i start thinking about something, i can't stop dwelling on it, until i just arrange the damn DVDs by color. but at least it's never been debilitating.

and now that i'm looking at my dvds which are right next to the books, i want to arrange my books. probably by size.
maybe i'm just bored.