Finding my Friends
Chris called me. He cared enough to call me and ask how I was. And, we had a chance to say "good-bye". So, maybe this whole ordeal was a good thing...maybe I can finally move on now. (or maybe I need just stop watching Grey's Anatomy to get over him. who knows.)It's nice to know that there really was something, and it wasn't all in my crazy, mixed up brain. It's nice to know that if I ever really need him, he cares enough to be there for me, but also know that he has other responsibilities. I cannot be his priority, and I cannot call on him whenever anything goes wrong. In any case, I think I will be okay.
It's really good to know that I have Maura, and that she is always here for me. I had told Liz, Jane and Leah about Valentines Day. But, for some reason, I knew that it was Maura who I needed to talk to. And I had the most fun telling Maura, because she gets me and the way my mind works better then anyone else. Last night, she just stopped by my house on her way home from school. Seeing her made me see the situation in a whole new light, and helped me figure the whole thing out in my mind. She made it seem like fun irony - not horrible, fuck with your life irony. I know I can live without Chris, and I have been living without Liz, and trying to live without Jane. But Maura. She I could never do without.
I encourage ya'll to find a friend who just brings out the best in you. Cause that is what Maura does for me. Last year, she was the one who finally brought me out of my four year sadness...not Chris, as I had believed for so long. It's amazing it took me so long to see.
It's really good to know that I have Maura, and that she is always here for me. I had told Liz, Jane and Leah about Valentines Day. But, for some reason, I knew that it was Maura who I needed to talk to. And I had the most fun telling Maura, because she gets me and the way my mind works better then anyone else. Last night, she just stopped by my house on her way home from school. Seeing her made me see the situation in a whole new light, and helped me figure the whole thing out in my mind. She made it seem like fun irony - not horrible, fuck with your life irony. I know I can live without Chris, and I have been living without Liz, and trying to live without Jane. But Maura. She I could never do without.
I encourage ya'll to find a friend who just brings out the best in you. Cause that is what Maura does for me. Last year, she was the one who finally brought me out of my four year sadness...not Chris, as I had believed for so long. It's amazing it took me so long to see.