drowning again.
almost a year after dad died... i miss him tremendously.
kc has been living with mom since last july (a month before i moved out)(except for the time that he spent in jail)- long story - i'll have to write the epic of KC&me sometime soon.
i moved to pittsburgh with stef and saphire (and stef's new boyfriend steve). we live on the south side slopes. i hate it.
this past weekend i got mugged near my home - they got $1 and a coupon for $.75 off a pack of camels. i lost what little shred of sanity i had left.
i'm working at DAM again (since last august) - and hating it. i'm likely to quit within the next week or so. i would have quit months ago had they not been stringing me along with promises of promotion.
i may be moving back to new castle, temporarily. that remains to be seen. it doesn't seem like a good option, but neither does staying here - i could move to ohio or to nashville and have musical opportunities, but i seem to be stuck and unable to acquire any money.
i met a guy who was all but perfect (named jayce pezzele) - we dated briefly before i screwed it up. we'll see what happens now. more on him in another (private) post
chad and i played a series of gigs in nashville last september... now he's moving up the date of his wedding and moving to nashville with jess. our collaboration has been dissolved for a few months now. our last gig together was on new years eve. i'm saddened by our separation.
i'm trying to stay positive... but it sure as hell seems like everything in my life is relatively negative. i'm poor, not musically involved, not romantically involved, hating my dead-end job, passed over for promotion, removed from mcconnells mill and my parks, absent from my friends, no longer teaching or facilitating drum circles (had to sell off drums), i've got no car... mom seems more likely to lose her house and i can't help... our relationship is stressed. my diet is shit and i lost my foodstamps (so i can't afford to eat any better). my spiritual development is stagnant. my drumming skills are atrophied (i hadn't played jerome from last july until just a few weeks ago...).
i still have to get the memorial tattoo for dad.
my sleeves remain unfinished.
my back remains unfinished.
i did get the 8 trigrams of the i-ching tattooed on my knuckles, though...
stef and steve ought to be back from vegas tonight (they went to get married. blah). i need to tidy up the house. more later.
kc has been living with mom since last july (a month before i moved out)(except for the time that he spent in jail)- long story - i'll have to write the epic of KC&me sometime soon.
i moved to pittsburgh with stef and saphire (and stef's new boyfriend steve). we live on the south side slopes. i hate it.
this past weekend i got mugged near my home - they got $1 and a coupon for $.75 off a pack of camels. i lost what little shred of sanity i had left.
i'm working at DAM again (since last august) - and hating it. i'm likely to quit within the next week or so. i would have quit months ago had they not been stringing me along with promises of promotion.
i may be moving back to new castle, temporarily. that remains to be seen. it doesn't seem like a good option, but neither does staying here - i could move to ohio or to nashville and have musical opportunities, but i seem to be stuck and unable to acquire any money.
i met a guy who was all but perfect (named jayce pezzele) - we dated briefly before i screwed it up. we'll see what happens now. more on him in another (private) post
chad and i played a series of gigs in nashville last september... now he's moving up the date of his wedding and moving to nashville with jess. our collaboration has been dissolved for a few months now. our last gig together was on new years eve. i'm saddened by our separation.
i'm trying to stay positive... but it sure as hell seems like everything in my life is relatively negative. i'm poor, not musically involved, not romantically involved, hating my dead-end job, passed over for promotion, removed from mcconnells mill and my parks, absent from my friends, no longer teaching or facilitating drum circles (had to sell off drums), i've got no car... mom seems more likely to lose her house and i can't help... our relationship is stressed. my diet is shit and i lost my foodstamps (so i can't afford to eat any better). my spiritual development is stagnant. my drumming skills are atrophied (i hadn't played jerome from last july until just a few weeks ago...).
i still have to get the memorial tattoo for dad.
my sleeves remain unfinished.
my back remains unfinished.
i did get the 8 trigrams of the i-ching tattooed on my knuckles, though...
stef and steve ought to be back from vegas tonight (they went to get married. blah). i need to tidy up the house. more later.