Living with it....
Its hard living with guilt and remorse or regret... im not sure which it is...
But I know that some are good at forgiving while others are not... Im just not used to it.
Sometimes I can just be a stubborn selfish jackass and that sucks. Sometimes everything isnt and SHOULDNT be about me!!!
Sometimes I need to not worry and realize things arent as COMPLICATED or complex as they seem :)
I am lucky and I shouldnt push or force something from me that is so wonderful... not that I was trying, but sometimes I prolly make it seem that way.
I am happy... and like I said today to someone, happiness is not always fun... but we usually have what we need right in front of us and we all need to learn to take those things and make ourselves happy. No one said it would be easy, but its pretty much what we have to do!
Church was nice tonight... spent it with some really special people.
I really do LOVE what is occuring in my life. It has not been an easy time by any means, but the struggle is worth it. I don't want to go through life wanting something so bad and not having it because of foolish pride....
Like the priest said tonight... "Good times lie ahead..." We are in the season of Advent... a time to repent, to cleanse, to repair, to re-invent, to re-kindle.... to prepare. This is all in waiting for a new life, a birth and creation of a new life and a new hope.....
Faith, Hope and Love.... and the greatest is Love.
But I know that some are good at forgiving while others are not... Im just not used to it.
Sometimes I can just be a stubborn selfish jackass and that sucks. Sometimes everything isnt and SHOULDNT be about me!!!
Sometimes I need to not worry and realize things arent as COMPLICATED or complex as they seem :)
I am lucky and I shouldnt push or force something from me that is so wonderful... not that I was trying, but sometimes I prolly make it seem that way.
I am happy... and like I said today to someone, happiness is not always fun... but we usually have what we need right in front of us and we all need to learn to take those things and make ourselves happy. No one said it would be easy, but its pretty much what we have to do!
Church was nice tonight... spent it with some really special people.
I really do LOVE what is occuring in my life. It has not been an easy time by any means, but the struggle is worth it. I don't want to go through life wanting something so bad and not having it because of foolish pride....
Like the priest said tonight... "Good times lie ahead..." We are in the season of Advent... a time to repent, to cleanse, to repair, to re-invent, to re-kindle.... to prepare. This is all in waiting for a new life, a birth and creation of a new life and a new hope.....
Faith, Hope and Love.... and the greatest is Love.