Regrets?

[aeondrift]

I feel so messed up lately. Besides my body being messed up, my mind is messed up too. When I got home from Kaohsiung last night, I just cried and cried with my head buried in my pillow. When I went out in Kaohsiung, I think I saw a possibility for my life that for over a year and a half in Taiwan completely eluded me. It's not that I don't love

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[berger43]

I think you've had an awesome revelation Jenni. It's very positive and one you won't forget. It's like looking at life from a different angle, remembering we "live our entire lives in our heads". I like the different shades of eyeglasses myself. No, not the "rose colored" ones this time. Ummm, instead of grey shades you put on yellow shades. Ahhhh, everything is so bright and sunny! Hahhahah. The old "seek and you shall find". It sounds like you realized (it's NEVER too late for these revelations!) there's fun times to be had everywhere, but first you've got to have the fun times "in your head".
As far as the roommate paying off her loan, well good for her! It's like buying something and then a friend says "Oh, I just got that on sale for 1/4 of the price!" Acccckkkkkk! I HATE YOU. As Granma is famous for saying, "What cha going to do, these things happen"? So you'll get out your "yellow" glasses, go to DC, get a great job that pays bundles of money, make lots of new wonderful friends and pay your loan off in TWO years. Yukadee Yuk, and na-na-na! You will have great successes to add to the ones you already have and you have plenty honey. Make a list, (Oh yes, LISTS!) of all the things positive about yourself and your accomplishments. Then make another one (oh boy TWO LISTS hehehe) of all the things you want to do in your life. Good thing to do on the plane rides. Have you seen "The Bucket List"? You must if you haven't! LIVE LIFE!! See you soon honey!!!