strange as it sounds
Woke up in a very weird mood. My mom called and said "Your'e going to stay at darcy's tonight" I have to so I can pick up my grandma's adopted daughter from the bus, b/c my grandma has to go to missippi to vote... what the fuck? This is my problem how? Why do these fucking responsibilities get pushed on me? Ah, I given up all hope on having a life I wanted... every time I turn around its something else. Do I have a sign above me that says "fuck me in the ass please."? If so, how come I don't see it? I guess I don't give a fuck anymore b/c I'm expected not to. Ugh... it's kinda like my wrists have been goulged open and blood is just pouring down to the ground, yet nobody notices. I feel like my emotions are useless... you see, I told ya I was in a weird mood. All I can hope for is that my loalty will pay off one day, which is what everyone says, but how can I be sure. I feel like it's all for nothing. My meds still give me these weird fucking... idk... "twitches" in reality. I'll be chillin, and next thing I know it's like 30 minutes later and I've said something to upset someone. I can't help it, I don't know what is happening to me... I wish I could get some straight answers. Starting today I'm no longer smoking... anything. Especially cigarettes, god they are nasty. FUUUUUUCK. OK... kinda vented now... *sigh* I gotta get away. Just fucking leave, and not say where I'm going, just for a while. But I can't so I'm stuck in this prision set up just for me. Well, idk... imma go do somethin, not sure what yet.
~Aeon
~Aeon