I'm Back Bitches!!
Guess what everybody, I can drive again! Well, Amber and I started dating like a month and 15 days ago, but she broke up with me on the 7th. Well, it was a mutual thing... and I still like to chill with her but it's kinda complicated. Anyway I got my car's insurance put back in my name so I'm hittin the road as often as I can. I've seen some old friends in the past month or so, and it's been alot of fun so I can't complain too much. Other than hangin out with everybody I gotsta start workin for my mom more... (TankCaddy.com our business we started about 3 or 4 years ago) so I can get money for gas and shit. Episode 3 starts in 4 days!! gunna be sooo cool. *sigh* Well at least I had a small-term relationship this year. I haven't had the best of luck in oooohh... my whole life. I'm glad me and her had some fun times, we didn't even fight that much till the end. I need to have someone there for me and so did she, so we were there for each other but I guess she just lost her attraction for me. But it's all good, we all have good times and bad. Oh, speaking of which, on Mother's day I was supposed to go to Blue Bayou with My dad And Darcy. Well, 8:00 am in the morning she decided it would be a wise decision to yell at me to get me up. Let me tell ya, twas not wise at all. I told her to get out of my room 3 times, she kept yellin and then started to say some hurtful things. Well it takes alot to piss me off, but that did it. I ended up threatening her with my sword and punched a hole in my door. Well of course mom got there and was pissed at us but she thought it was my fault. So I got the flak from her about a bunch of shit that was on her mind... then Danny got there. By this time I was screaming at everybody and danny made a wise choice and got darcy to leave with him. Eventually mom also got me even more pissed. Please understand this before I go further: I do not like self-mutillation/cutting. I know many people who do cut or who have, now I like pain and I know that's a little strange, but I don't approve of cutting. If someone who is my friend cuts themselves thats their choice, I think no less of them but I don't like it. Anyway, needless to say that my mom got me so enraged that I cut myself. Thankfully I didn't do it right so I only bleed a little and I don't have bad scars. I'm really bad about holding in anger, I've been saying it for years, that was indeed an event that displays without a doubt that I am correct about this problem. I'm doing my best to acheive a better personality without losing my individuality. I wiil from now on say something if someone does something to bother me or if they are upsetting or annoying me in anyway. I will also try to appear in a manner that suits my personality, yet try to be more outgoing and have more stoutness in social situations. These are of course just my initial plans. As far as my personality goes I think I'm pretty fuckin cool, although I'm not intentionally trying to be erogant. I sacrifice alot for my friends, and yet even more for my family but it seems as if everyone keeps asking for more. I have just been under too much stress lately, that's no excuse for doing what I did... there is no excuse for that. But I do regret what I did, I had no self-control over what I was doing due to the overwhelming temper I had. And yes, I did apologize to eveyone. I'm usually a gentle person, all my friends know this. Just a lapse in judgement and sanity I suppose. Hey it happens to us all sooner or later. Ok, well Imma go do other stuff now... keep it real hommies!
~Aeon
~Aeon