1. Your Name: Carolina Jacks 2. Are we friends? Not close friends, but you are family, and we both are protective of Alex. Allies? 3. Do you have a crush/attracted to me? If I liked girls, I would be. 4. Would you kiss me? *grins* Maybe 5. ...with tongue? Alex would have a video camera, so...no. 6. Would you enjoy it? Ummmm. 7. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I ask you out? I would love to have lunch or something with you. I don't have a lot of female friends. 8. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater? No. 9. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you: The smell of Aramis cologne makes me violently ill. 10. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? Of course. 11. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? Just that I'm happy that Alex has you. I feel better when I'm gone, knowing that you are watching out for him and making sure he's safe and loved. 12. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me? Without question. 13. Do you think I'm a good person? I think you are, in your soul, the best kind of a good person. You are loyal and you care about your family. 14. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)? Sure. 15. Do you think I'm hot? I think you and Sestra are the most breathtakingly beautiful women I have ever seen. 16. Would you call me just because? If it wouldn't bother you, yes. 17. Would you ever listen to my problems even if they don't involve you? I would. Anytime. 18. If you could change anything about me, would you? I would make you smile. 19. Would you have sex with me? *dies laughing* Ummm, so not into girls, but that does make an interesting picture in my head. 20. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out? Yes, and you can come over, too. 21. What do you like most about me (looks and/or personality)? Your loyalty to Alex. It's so strong, and he loves you so much. 22. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you? No. *shakes her head* I can't.
Aeon...I don't know you, except for your relationship with Alex and Evan. But I like you, for you, from what we know of each other.
*Quietly* The accusation is that I'm...what? Shallow? Only caring about people because of who they are associated with? I suppose I've spent enough time being condemmed because of who I'm related to, married to or associated with. I can relate to that feeling, in a way.
It's much more than that, Aeon. I don't know Alex well. We didn't grow up together. His friends and lovers have come in and said hello or accompanied Alex to a family party or gathering. But never, not once, have they tried to bring me into their circle independantly. Am I jealous? Maybe a little. He loves us both. But he respects you. I have his blood. You have his heart. But my admiration for you, while obviously not mutually shared, has been based on the qualities that you posess, that Alex and Evan both held dear. Your intelligence, your courage, your loyalty. When he's in pain, when he's afraid, when he needs a place to run to for his sanctuary, he comes to you. Yes. You're right. It's a tenuous link, certainly not for my lack of trying, beating my head against a brick wall to be a family with all of you. But it's one that comes from the heart, because his love for you...his tremendous love and care for you, for Sestra, for Michael, for all the people in this circle of faith around him tells me that you are something very special.
And I hate being locked out. But that's nothing against any of you. It is just the way it is. *swallows*
Don't worry. I'm leaving. Two thousand miles should be sufficient. And I know he'll be just fine, here.
I've never been really good at holding friends Casha. I've always been a loner. Since I could remember it has only been just me, no one else. Never allowed to get close to anyone even if I wanted to.
I don't want you to be jealous of me because of my relationship with Aleksandr. He loves you just as much and after all, blood is a deeper bond than anything else.
I admire you, Casha because of you. Because you have kept up the strength to keep going. You are raising your children, something I can't do. You are taking care of family and even when the world has hit you in the gut, you find a way to go one even if you don't want to.
I am not locking you out. At least you have people around you, including Aleksandr that care for you. All I have is him. Not even Sestra talks to me. In fact, you talk to me more than she does. And Evan... *swallows and goes silent*
But Casha, I never locked you out. I'm sorry if you felt that way. I suggest we put the past in the past and try from here. I need to go shopping, if you like to come.
When you have children, there is no choice. I'm all they've got. And the girls are hard targets, as I'm sure Alex probably told you. So I have to keep going. Besides...*smiles*...I won't let the bastards win, and neither will you. I think we are very much alike that way.
*Sighs at her mention of Evan.* I'm so sorry about Evan. He was this incredibly strong force of nature, and it seems like nothing is quite right since he's been gone. I know Alex misses him, and I'm sure you do, too.
*Gently* I know that you never meant to. Life is so...crazy sometimes. I would love to go shopping with you. *laughs* With three growing children, I always need to shop. Plus I haven't bought anything fresh and pretty for spring.
*Seriously* Aeon...I don't know Alex as well as I would like to, but I do know this, blood means little to him. DNA does not replace or trump the feelings he has for you. He adores you, he trusts you and he needs you. He needs us both, more than ever. There are too many people out there that want to use him or hurt him. I hate it, and I know that you won't let it happen. You, Sestra and I...we have to watch out for him. We are his sisters. All of us. And I hope that you will consider my family yours. Lizzie already raves about how beautiful her aunts are.
2. Are we friends? Not close friends, but you are family, and we both are protective of Alex. Allies?
3. Do you have a crush/attracted to me? If I liked girls, I would be.
4. Would you kiss me? *grins* Maybe
5. ...with tongue? Alex would have a video camera, so...no.
6. Would you enjoy it? Ummmm.
7. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I ask you out? I would love to have lunch or something with you. I don't have a lot of female friends.
8. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater? No.
9. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you: The smell of Aramis cologne makes me violently ill.
10. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? Of course.
11. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? Just that I'm happy that Alex has you. I feel better when I'm gone, knowing that you are watching out for him and making sure he's safe and loved.
12. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me? Without question.
13. Do you think I'm a good person? I think you are, in your soul, the best kind of a good person. You are loyal and you care about your family.
14. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)? Sure.
15. Do you think I'm hot? I think you and Sestra are the most breathtakingly beautiful women I have ever seen.
16. Would you call me just because? If it wouldn't bother you, yes.
17. Would you ever listen to my problems even if they don't involve you? I would. Anytime.
18. If you could change anything about me, would you? I would make you smile.
19. Would you have sex with me? *dies laughing* Ummm, so not into girls, but that does make an interesting picture in my head.
20. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out? Yes, and you can come over, too.
21. What do you like most about me (looks and/or personality)? Your loyalty to Alex. It's so strong, and he loves you so much.
22. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you? No. *shakes her head* I can't.
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But Aleksandr does not need me. He has a great deal of others, like yourself who will take care of him.
Hmm, as for sex with me, did you not mention earlier you would not kiss me because you are not into girls and Aleksandr might have a camera? *smiles*
Hmm, it seems the only reason anyone likes me is because of my relationship with Aleksandr. I can see the truth.
But thank you for filling this out.
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*Quietly* The accusation is that I'm...what? Shallow? Only caring about people because of who they are associated with? I suppose I've spent enough time being condemmed because of who I'm related to, married to or associated with. I can relate to that feeling, in a way.
It's much more than that, Aeon. I don't know Alex well. We didn't grow up together. His friends and lovers have come in and said hello or accompanied Alex to a family party or gathering. But never, not once, have they tried to bring me into their circle independantly. Am I jealous? Maybe a little. He loves us both. But he respects you. I have his blood. You have his heart. But my admiration for you, while obviously not mutually shared, has been based on the qualities that you posess, that Alex and Evan both held dear. Your intelligence, your courage, your loyalty. When he's in pain, when he's afraid, when he needs a place to run to for his sanctuary, he comes to you. Yes. You're right. It's a tenuous link, certainly not for my lack of trying, beating my head against a brick wall to be a family with all of you. But it's one that comes from the heart, because his love for you...his tremendous love and care for you, for Sestra, for Michael, for all the people in this circle of faith around him tells me that you are something very special.
And I hate being locked out. But that's nothing against any of you. It is just the way it is. *swallows*
Don't worry. I'm leaving. Two thousand miles should be sufficient. And I know he'll be just fine, here.
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I don't want you to be jealous of me because of my relationship with Aleksandr. He loves you just as much and after all, blood is a deeper bond than anything else.
I admire you, Casha because of you. Because you have kept up the strength to keep going. You are raising your children, something I can't do. You are taking care of family and even when the world has hit you in the gut, you find a way to go one even if you don't want to.
I am not locking you out. At least you have people around you, including Aleksandr that care for you. All I have is him. Not even Sestra talks to me. In fact, you talk to me more than she does. And Evan... *swallows and goes silent*
But Casha, I never locked you out. I'm sorry if you felt that way. I suggest we put the past in the past and try from here. I need to go shopping, if you like to come.
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*Sighs at her mention of Evan.* I'm so sorry about Evan. He was this incredibly strong force of nature, and it seems like nothing is quite right since he's been gone. I know Alex misses him, and I'm sure you do, too.
*Gently* I know that you never meant to. Life is so...crazy sometimes. I would love to go shopping with you. *laughs* With three growing children, I always need to shop. Plus I haven't bought anything fresh and pretty for spring.
*Seriously* Aeon...I don't know Alex as well as I would like to, but I do know this, blood means little to him. DNA does not replace or trump the feelings he has for you. He adores you, he trusts you and he needs you. He needs us both, more than ever. There are too many people out there that want to use him or hurt him. I hate it, and I know that you won't let it happen. You, Sestra and I...we have to watch out for him. We are his sisters. All of us. And I hope that you will consider my family yours. Lizzie already raves about how beautiful her aunts are.
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