Confessions

[aenslach]

I don't know why I am alive. I really don't. Not like the meaning of life or anything, I just wonder why I haven't tried to kill myself yet. Quite frankly I have no desire to live anymore. I am stricken of hope

Comments

[ranyagami]

I'm sorry if we've seemed insensitive. You always seem like your strong and act as if you can handle anything on your own. At least we should have realized there was something more wrong than it seemed given your confessions and complaints last night.

Still, not every person is strong in every way, in the same way, no person is weak in every way. People need help, there is no shame in asking. Posting this entry proves a form of courage. There are many people who would just sit and be too scared to admit to things such as these, fearing what people think. But, thats exactly the reason that people need others. Not all problems can be fixed by themselves.

In my personal opinion, however, I think your a better person than you think. Your one of the smartest people I know and sometimes you amaze me by your observations, especially about people's personalities. Many of your interpretations are stunning, and its something I've always been impressed by.
There are so many possibilities that your intellegence gives you. Jobs like the one you had... no one should endure, its understandable to quit, but not all jobs are like that. Your not a person who was designed to work in such a place. You have a tallent for the technical and the mental, and those are two things that can go far given the chance. You may just need to give it some time, there is no shame in waiting or taking a break.

Anyhow, I'll keep this is mind and try to help you in any way I can if possible. No one should have to feel alone and unable to ask for something, if you need help go ahead and call. I can't speak for anyone else, but I'll listen.