....revised.....revisited....raw truth....
10 THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO SAY STRAIGHT TO PEOPLE ( I WAS TAGGED TWICE)
*don't waste your breath by trying to get me to spill because it's not going to happen*
(i won't name names even though i have very specific people in mind)
1) you drag me down and don't realize it.... yet on the flip side, you can make me the happiest person in the world when you really don't try..... with you, i'm always a yo-yo....i like you most when you're serious. when you're real. when it's just us. why did you have to change? God can make people better than you can, so embrace the genuine. you've taught me so much about myself, and you have respected me like no one else...and i will NEVER regret telling you what i did. i guess, somehow, it will always be true.....
2) i don't hate you and i never will. i truly love you and yet you find it hard to accept that. but i think you need to learn to love yourself before you can accept love from me.
3) i admire you more than you'll ever know and could date you if you weren't already taken. you are a golden person. an untouchable. i respect you with all my heart and will always be here for you. i mean that with everything in me. you are one of the the two people i feel i can cry to and you would understand (although so far i haven't). i hope she makes you happy....you deserve the best.
4) thank you for coming back. i wish you would have talked to me but i understand we aren't "that close". you're the reason i screwed up my first song, but it's okay. i was just so worried about you.....i don't think you'll ever understand. i'm NOT a part of your fan club. i see PAST you're popularity and i've always wanted to know YOU.
5) i'm hurting you too much. it's just not right. i'm not willing to set myself up for that again. i got over you before you knew who i was. now you're too late. you don't know just how much i regret and yet....i wouldn't change our past for the world.
6) you intimidate me. you are one of the wisest people i've ever met and i respect you so much. you are in the top # 5 spiritual leaders in my life and i look up to you even though physically i look down to you.
7) you make me want to do drugs and hang out at blackbird island. you are real and genuine and i LOVE that about you. you bring out a whole new side of me because you know the value of hidden things, things that most people overlook. you are so wise and so underestimated, but the beautiful thing is that you don't care. you and i are so similar and yet so completely different. i embrace our differences and hope ours is a bond that won't break no matter how sick we get of eachother.
8) you are the wisest teenage guy i know. you are my "brother" and one of my best friends and i know you won't read this. i can't imagine high-school without having you there. you are genuine, compassionate, and i did pray for you...i don't ever want to see you hurt, and yet i know that if you did become hurt for some reason you wouldn't let it bring you down. thank you for trusting me enough to "spill". you have no idea how much i look up to you and how much seek your approval. i've been immiture in the past, but i hope you can see past that and understand how much i care for you. and how much you've taught me. oh, and by the way.......i genuinely hope it takes a bit less than 6 years. :)
9) i know i can call you up at mid-night and ask you to pray for me (i have before). i know i can drink propell on fishing docks and talk and listen and not have to talk. not have to fill the silence. you were there when i needed you most and i hope you will want to be a part of the rest of my life. i hope you aren't dissapointed in me, and i hope that if you are, you would tell me. you are the most compassionate person i know, and i'm so thankful you came into my life this last year. ps. i also know you're partial....but i'm okay with that.
10) i hated you at the begining of last year, but by the end, i thought you were the greatest thing in the world. your voice inspires me every time i hear it, and i wish with all my heart we were closer because you're someone worth getting to know. i love your stubborn will and your "i don't take crap from anyone" attitude. you're genuine, and i love that about you.
bonus:....just TEN is so difficult.....i couldn't help myself.
%) you've changed. not in a bad way...just outside of the ways i have. just outside of me. i guess you could say we're growing apart. i'm okay with that, though. you challenged me to grow, to become comfortable with myself. you put on a great face, but underneath, i don't think you're as sure as you pretend to be. you're such a spiritual leader, and i will always look up to you and admire your sensitive, yet firmly rooted soul. you have taught me so much, and there's no one i would rather have spent ALL that time with than you. thank you for investing in me.
@) you are one of the most incredible musicians i know, and i don't think you recognise your own potential. i can't begin to say how much you've taught me. thanks for the hour - long talks in your car, and the faith you've put in me. i know i could talk to you about anything and recieve nothing but pure and unbiased truth in return. you have a beautiful spirit, and the most origional, yet genuinely hilarious personality. thank you for.....you.
IF YOU THINK ONE OF THESE NUMBERS IS ABOUT YOU, IT MOST LIKELY ISN'T. SO GET OVER YOURSELF ALREADY.
*but feel free to guess*
just know this: i reserve the right to lie
OH, AND I DON'T BELIEVE IN TAGGING...
BUT IF I DID I WOULD TAG.......
SKYNK
MARIA (INSERT NUMBER HERE)
TIGGER (....DITTO)
CHUMBLY
SEA STACKS (ALTHOUGH I'M PRETTY SURE HE DOESN'T DO THESE)