My living hell
Ryan and i met yesterday with a couple's councilor. Things seemed like they were going well. We decided to date exclusively for a month to see if we had anything to offer each other. So we went on a date. Things went from bad to worse. We were both uncomfortable. He got very upset. Then i got upset. I called it off this morning. I'm rather depressed. I've lost him now. That's it. Everything i missed is gone. I guess i did the right thing. We could have ended up in even more pain... which is where things seemed to be heading if last night was any indication. It hurts. And i have this complex...thinking that i'm just too hard to handle and that no one will be able to love me like that again. Shit. I think i'm alone in this world. Go me.