life is hard
Sometimes it just hurts so damn much to do the right thing. Hell, i'm not even sure what the right thing IS anymore. But i'm hurting. I just need a little time to straighten my head out. But i can't change things now. I'm on a path, and i have to finish traversing it. Hopefully i'll be able to answer these questions that have been plaguing me these last few weeks. Not that i know if i have any options after that, but at least i'll know i did the right thing, right? Does that grant peace of mind? I'm hiding in my hole. Tonight is a time for serious contemplation. God it hurts...
So yeah, the right thing: I broke up with Ryan today. I miss him terribly. But i need the time to figure out what I, me, myself, really want. I love him. It hurts horribly to do it. But i don't know what would have happened. He probably hates my guts which makes things worse. But maybe he would have hated me more later on...I just don't know.
So yeah, the right thing: I broke up with Ryan today. I miss him terribly. But i need the time to figure out what I, me, myself, really want. I love him. It hurts horribly to do it. But i don't know what would have happened. He probably hates my guts which makes things worse. But maybe he would have hated me more later on...I just don't know.