my head hurts, dammit
Today (being Jan. 3) officially means I've had this headache for one month. Yep. One full month to the day. And during that month, I've had 11 migraines and I'm starting to get number 12 right now. My CT scan was normal though, so that's good. But they still don't know what's wrong, and that's not good. I hate feeling like this. I randomly cry for no reason. I can't control it. I'm weak and tired and I get dizzy alot and I can't think clearly all the time. I have huge memory gaps and problems (gaps meaning an hour or two up to a full day that I just don't remember).
Last time I had a headache like this, it lasted 4 months and I had like 50 migraines during that period. I also had vision thingys going on. Like my left eye would see things normally but my right eye would see everything 50% smaller so I didn't have depth perception or any sense of dimensional analysis. I couldn't even make a complete picutre of what I was seeing in my head. After I had a CT scan, MRI and EEG (all came back normal) with that 4 month expedition, they said "Well, we don't know what's wrong, but we assume you are having optic seizures and they are causing your headache and migraines." Well this time it's not my eyes fucking up, it's my memory. And the headache/migraines are back.
Dr. Ahmed said he might could understand the migraines being frequent. It's a condition called cluster migraines, but he also said that didn't explain the headache or past vision problems and current memory problem. A headache and a migraine are two completely different things, not different degrees of the same thing. A migraine has a location and different symptoms. My migraines are either directly behind the upper half of my left eye or slighly below and behind my right ear. I don't get headaches that often. What's weird is, not only do my migraines come in clusters, but the clusters are accompanied by the constant headache (which is caused by something different) and appearantly some other random problem(s). So he said, yeah I might have been having optic seizures last time, but that wasn't the root of the problem, just a product of it. So the question becomes... what is causing both my migraines and headaches to occur together and why has whatever also been able to affect my optic nerves and my memory?
I'm glad my CT came back normal but at the same time, I just wanna know what the hell is wrong with me, you know? This has only been a month and I already feel so fucking drained. Last time it lasted 4 months, but I'm not sure I can handle 3 more months of this shit. I want to find the root of the problem and fix it or treat it rather than just treating each of my symptoms seperately. I want to know why and stop the why. I don't want to have to take migraine pills and headache pills and whatever other stuff everyday til it stops again.
I'm pissed off and I'm scared that something might be wrong and I'm tired of feeling like shit. I just want to feel like my normal self again.
Last time I had a headache like this, it lasted 4 months and I had like 50 migraines during that period. I also had vision thingys going on. Like my left eye would see things normally but my right eye would see everything 50% smaller so I didn't have depth perception or any sense of dimensional analysis. I couldn't even make a complete picutre of what I was seeing in my head. After I had a CT scan, MRI and EEG (all came back normal) with that 4 month expedition, they said "Well, we don't know what's wrong, but we assume you are having optic seizures and they are causing your headache and migraines." Well this time it's not my eyes fucking up, it's my memory. And the headache/migraines are back.
Dr. Ahmed said he might could understand the migraines being frequent. It's a condition called cluster migraines, but he also said that didn't explain the headache or past vision problems and current memory problem. A headache and a migraine are two completely different things, not different degrees of the same thing. A migraine has a location and different symptoms. My migraines are either directly behind the upper half of my left eye or slighly below and behind my right ear. I don't get headaches that often. What's weird is, not only do my migraines come in clusters, but the clusters are accompanied by the constant headache (which is caused by something different) and appearantly some other random problem(s). So he said, yeah I might have been having optic seizures last time, but that wasn't the root of the problem, just a product of it. So the question becomes... what is causing both my migraines and headaches to occur together and why has whatever also been able to affect my optic nerves and my memory?
I'm glad my CT came back normal but at the same time, I just wanna know what the hell is wrong with me, you know? This has only been a month and I already feel so fucking drained. Last time it lasted 4 months, but I'm not sure I can handle 3 more months of this shit. I want to find the root of the problem and fix it or treat it rather than just treating each of my symptoms seperately. I want to know why and stop the why. I don't want to have to take migraine pills and headache pills and whatever other stuff everyday til it stops again.
I'm pissed off and I'm scared that something might be wrong and I'm tired of feeling like shit. I just want to feel like my normal self again.