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I'm scared because Dolly is starting to limp on her left back leg. She is moving really slowly and Mom told me not to be surprised that within a year that she has to be put down. I've always had the false assumption that Dolly is always going to be around. Eight years to me does not seem like the age where someone can be feeble. So to picture Dolly as aging seems odd. But I can see the white around her face, the change in her bark, her slow movement, even the look in her eyes. Last night I was trying to sleep but I couldn't because the fact that my dog could be gone tomorrow is scary. I'm scared that one day Mom is going to take Dolly to the vet and put her down. She wouldn't even bother telling any of us to 'save us' or some shit. Then I wouldn't have got the chance to say goodbye AGAIN.
I can't believe that it's after ten already. :o\ I haven't even done anything today. Brad spent the night and he was up before I was, which rarely ever happens. We basically played the X-box all day until he left around four. I made up a character on Morrowind and its fun. I hate it though how I'm easily scared. This dinky worm started attacking me and a freaked out not knowing what to do. Ah, yeah, I'm an odd one. I like it though how we can do anything and have fun. Before we were complete opposites, but now after three years we've sort of...I don't know, combined each others personalities, so now we aren't so different after all. We think the same way now, he knows what I'm about to say before I even open my mouth. I just think how funny it is, looking back on how we used to be.