Mar 29, 2007 21:38
Even though I'm technically not in a relationship with him right now, I suppose the biggest mistake I've made (for now) is not telling Jeremie how I feel about him.
Jeremie is...very special to me. He was my the first friend I'd had in a long time. If it hadn't been for Jeremie turning the supercomputer back on, I wouldn't be here right now. Odd teases him by calling him "Einstein", and I'll admit that Jeremie's intelligence is one of the things I admire about him. But it's not the only thing.
I admire his determination. No matter how many times XANA attacked, Jeremie wouldn't let anything stop him from working on first my materalization program and then the anti-virus. And now he's hard at work trying to get us able to materialize directly onto the Internet.
The others might not believe it, but there's a romantic hiding behind Jeremie's intellectual exterior. I still remember the night that he walked me from the factory to Yumi's house, on my first day on Earth in ten years. On our way we stopped to look at some roses in a flowerbox, and Jeremie picked one for me. In the park we found a photo booth and took some silly pictures; the two of us making faces, me wearing Jeremie's glasses, that sort of thing. When we finally got to Yumi's house, I gave Jeremie a kiss on the cheek before heading inside.
Unfortunately, our relationship hasn't gone much farther since then. I could blame it on XANA; when we aren't busy fighting him, we're worried over when he's going to attack next or about outside influences threatening our little group - poor Ulrich has been getting some major grief from his father lately, for example. But I know its just as much my fault for not saying anything to Jeremie.
I wish I could get up the courage to tell him, soon. Before something happens to me and its too late to tell him anything.
theatrical muse,
jeremie