Challenge Response - What I Don't Want Anyone to Know
(OOC: Most of this is conjecture on the mun's part, as Season 2 of Code: LYOKO hasn't yet aired in the US. So just consider it a bit of fanon)
It's a side effect of the virus XANA implanted in me when I first materialized on Earth from LYOKO, the virus that links my health to his and prevents my friends from shutting him down so that I don't die. I told Jeremie that I could feel the virus when he tried to bring me out a second time.
I haven't told any of my friends that I can feel more than just XANA's virus inside of me.
I can feel XANA.
I first noticed it at Yumi's house after my materialization, when I was trying to sleep for the first time in my life. I kept hearing an odd noise, and I didn't know where it was coming from. It took me several minutes before I realized that the sound was laughter, evil laughter, and it was inside of my head. It was XANA, and he was gloating.
From that point on, there hasn't been a day that's gone by where XANA hasn't spoken to me. He likes to use a distorted version of Jeremie's voice when he speaks. Sometimes XANA taunts me, bragging about what he could do next to wreak havoc on Earth, or mocking me when I'm trying to find his next activated tower so that I can deactivate it. Sometimes XANA threatens me. He claims that he could kill me if he chose, or he could simply take over my body all through that virus of his. He has proven able to perform this last task on a couple of occasions - I have awoken from unconsciousness in different areas of LYOKO with no recollection of how I got there or what I was doing.
And sometimes...sometimes he's nice. He speaks to me as though I was his friend and not his enemy. XANA tries to convince me to join him, promising that he'll remove the virus or make it so that I'll be able to materialize in the real world whenever I want to. This is when XANA frightens me the most, as sometimes it is a preamble to his possessing me.
It is for this reason that I cannot let Jeremie, Yumi, Ulrich or Odd know how deep my connection with XANA really goes. I fear that if they knew how far his power now extended they would lose trust in me. And I cannot blame them if they did, as I have begun to doubt myself a little.
It's a side effect of the virus XANA implanted in me when I first materialized on Earth from LYOKO, the virus that links my health to his and prevents my friends from shutting him down so that I don't die. I told Jeremie that I could feel the virus when he tried to bring me out a second time.
I haven't told any of my friends that I can feel more than just XANA's virus inside of me.
I can feel XANA.
I first noticed it at Yumi's house after my materialization, when I was trying to sleep for the first time in my life. I kept hearing an odd noise, and I didn't know where it was coming from. It took me several minutes before I realized that the sound was laughter, evil laughter, and it was inside of my head. It was XANA, and he was gloating.
From that point on, there hasn't been a day that's gone by where XANA hasn't spoken to me. He likes to use a distorted version of Jeremie's voice when he speaks. Sometimes XANA taunts me, bragging about what he could do next to wreak havoc on Earth, or mocking me when I'm trying to find his next activated tower so that I can deactivate it. Sometimes XANA threatens me. He claims that he could kill me if he chose, or he could simply take over my body all through that virus of his. He has proven able to perform this last task on a couple of occasions - I have awoken from unconsciousness in different areas of LYOKO with no recollection of how I got there or what I was doing.
And sometimes...sometimes he's nice. He speaks to me as though I was his friend and not his enemy. XANA tries to convince me to join him, promising that he'll remove the virus or make it so that I'll be able to materialize in the real world whenever I want to. This is when XANA frightens me the most, as sometimes it is a preamble to his possessing me.
It is for this reason that I cannot let Jeremie, Yumi, Ulrich or Odd know how deep my connection with XANA really goes. I fear that if they knew how far his power now extended they would lose trust in me. And I cannot blame them if they did, as I have begun to doubt myself a little.