new year resolutions
I don't care whether it's New Year's because I want to make resolutions.
1. I think I should be meaner to people.
2. I think I should stop being influenced by people.
3.
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After much consideration, I've decided that it's okay to be influenced by people and to be overly nice to them and whatever. :P I shall continue doing so relentlessly and if I really can't stand stuff,
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But if you're always influenced by people then you can't have your own stands.
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*sulks*
I want to be a dictatorial type like Chunny, or a sensitive-vindictive type like Cherlynn. I don't know whether I'm even supposed to help them *resolve their differences*, or whether I just let them fight it out and not care about it. I feel guilty for making them co-exist together in that both of them are my friends.
And 2. Like the way my moods are influenced by other people's. If they feel like talking, I feel happy. If they don't, I go and sulk. Stuff. And what they say can make me laugh or cry. It's like some robot you feed information into, and it produces an expected result.
Blah.
Sometimes I can't stand being Alaris.