Muslim Polyamory?
Ok, so I am back on even ground with Jasem because our whole staff has been replaced pretty much, the upper management anyway and now nobody who matters knows about Jasem and I, which is really cool. But see, here's the thing. Every man in Jasem's family works here. His father, twin brother, uncle and his best friend since childhood. His best friend is named Raed and a few months ago, Raed was assigned to work with Jasem and I in books because he speaks and reads English wonderfully. Well, Raed and I got to know a lot about each other, just chatting and then I was the one he turned to when his girlfriend and her sister died in a car explosion in Baghdad. He and I got closer and at first, Jasem got jealous. But then he seemed to relax when we all spent more time together and then Raed told him that he was in love with me and Jasem said it was ok. I have told both Jasem and Raed that I care about Raed very deeply and he and I spend almost every moment together at work. He, Jasem and I love to trade backrubs, hugs, and snuggling stuff. But Raed and I have never kissed. I think that is why Jasem is ok with everything. He trusts us. And for good reason. Neither Raed or I would ever hurt him. I have not had a boyfriend or lover the whole time I have been with Jasem. I told him he could have another girlfriend if he wanted but he says he is too busy. And now Jasem, Raed and I love being together, hugging together and having fun at work. But you know what?
My worst time is nighttime. It is so hard being alone at night. Not out of fear, but out of loneliness. I stay busy during the day, working from 0700-2100 everyday and I am ok with that. But at night, things change. It is cold here now and I would love to have someone to snuggle with, watch movies with or even just have someone to walk in the night air with and look at the stars. Sorry, getting sappy. Yes, I am really lonely at night. Yes, I know who I want to snuggle with, no he is not american. He is Pakistani and the most gentle, loving man I have ever met in my whole life. His name is Asad and he is the TCN supervisor of the warehouse. He hugs me sometimes and it is so hard to let go.
I can never see Jasem at night because all the locals have to be offpost by 1800 at the very latest but with winter coming, they leave at 1500 so they can get home before it gets dark. Once it gets dark, it is no longer safe for them. Not that it is all that much safer when the sun is shining. It's just easier to see who you're aiming at.
I am NOT looking forward to Feb. I cannot leave here...this place is my home.
My worst time is nighttime. It is so hard being alone at night. Not out of fear, but out of loneliness. I stay busy during the day, working from 0700-2100 everyday and I am ok with that. But at night, things change. It is cold here now and I would love to have someone to snuggle with, watch movies with or even just have someone to walk in the night air with and look at the stars. Sorry, getting sappy. Yes, I am really lonely at night. Yes, I know who I want to snuggle with, no he is not american. He is Pakistani and the most gentle, loving man I have ever met in my whole life. His name is Asad and he is the TCN supervisor of the warehouse. He hugs me sometimes and it is so hard to let go.
I can never see Jasem at night because all the locals have to be offpost by 1800 at the very latest but with winter coming, they leave at 1500 so they can get home before it gets dark. Once it gets dark, it is no longer safe for them. Not that it is all that much safer when the sun is shining. It's just easier to see who you're aiming at.
I am NOT looking forward to Feb. I cannot leave here...this place is my home.