May 08, 2005 22:06
Sorry for the sentiments that i'll burst out. It's just that today is mothers' day and i have no special gifts for my mom. This is the least i can do.
Dear Mom,
Sorry i don't have something special for you today. As much as i wanted to buy you even a size S green tshirt, i can't. I want to let you know all the things that i feel and this is the only medium i can use to express it. Sorry for the headaches, heartaches, problems, disappointments, and depressions i have given you for the past years that i'm under your care. Sorry for not graduating, for picking money from your pockets when i was a child, for not eating and sharing dinner with you all the time, for ignoring your favors and commands, for not texting you where i am that made you worried, for making you stay up late coz you're waiting for me to arrive, for making you fetch buckets of water and not helping you bring them inside, for not helping you carry the LPG container coz i am still asleep, for inventing alibis whenever i got in trouble, for shouting at you when you wake me up coz i haven't had enough sleep yet, for doing a lot of things that made you feel irate most of the times, for being a repeat offender, and for not making you feel you are loved and appreciated. I wish i can go back time to change all these things. But i am thankful that God made you my mom, for carrying me for 9 months, for letting all my mistakes pass by, for the untiring forgiveness you have given me eventhough i keep on bouncing back to the same acts hundreds of times, for the lessons in life you've taught me, for still bringing food 3 times a day on the table, for leaving food for me eventhough i insisted you eat them, for supporting me in my endeavors, for providing me my needs eventhough i should be the one who's responsible for doing it, for not getting mad and yelling on me when you caught me smoking outside, for covering me up and telling people i'm already on my way eventhough i'm still dressing up or i'm already asleep eventhough i'm still out with my friends, for buying me shirts eventhough i don't really like them (but i appreciate it), for the thought of asking me if someone hurt me coz i hugged you one time in Good Friday 2 years back when i got home from church, for the courage you've shown that you can take care of me by yourself even dad left us, for the patience, love, care, hope, understanding, sacrifices and everything that made me this person i am now. Thank you for YOU!
Though i wanted to share with you every bit of gladness and laughter i feel when i'm with my friends, i keep on giving you headaches and problems. Every passing day makes me sad of the thought that you'll be taken away from me sooner or later coz i think i never made any single act that made you happy. I just wish before that time comes, i have made you feel that you did a great job of making me the this, the person i am today so that when God asks you if you did good in your lifetime and sees everything you have done, God will only speak these words: Your mission is accomplished!
I wish i can give you my life to make yours longer.
I love you so much, mom, eventhough i have never said it for 21 years! Happy Mothers' Day!
I got this somewhere for you. I hope you'll like it.
I'd give her my life just so that
she'd live longer
I'd give her my strength
to make her stronger
I'd take away her tears
so that she'd never cry
I'd take away her frowns
so that her smile could never die
I'll always be there for her
when ever she needs me
If I could I'd give her happy thoughts
that only she could see
Though one of these days
she'll be gone
she'll always be my mom
with every day that goes on