Just when I'd given up dreaming
TITLE: Just when I'd given up dreaming
PAIRING/MEMBERS: Minho/Kibum, (slight) Onew/Taemin, OT5
GENRE: drama
RATING: PG
NOTES: I just reposted this from my community.
SUMMARY: Minho loves Kibum, Kibum loves Minho. But if love was that easy there wouldn't be any problems in the world, right? Both boys are too stubborn to confess to each other. And Taemin and Jonghyun are also in love's way. When Kibum leaves the dorm without telling before hand is there a chance that things will change?
Everytime Minho saw Kibum laughing and smiling with Jonghyun, he had the feeling as if his world was turning a few shades darker. Everytime he saw the older boy all alone, trying to fix his hair, while mumbling some curses, he felt the urge to take him into his arms and tell him how perfect he was - not that Kibum didn't know himself that he was flawless, or at least that's what he thought about himself. Everytime Kibum was upset, Minho wished he could comfort him. But everytime he tried to take all his courage, Jonghyun or Onew, yes even Taemin, was faster than him. And everytime Kibum was fussing over him, he had the slight hope, that the boy actually was really fussing over him and not doing it because of his haggard personality.
Kibum met Minho's gaze and a warm smile spread all over his face. Oh how he wished, that the younger boy would understand that he actually was smiling just for him! But Minho didn't understand and he didn't understand how hard it was on Kibum seeing him laughing and smiling with Taemin, neither.
When Minho was down, because he kept messing up his raps or dance steps, Kibum embraced him, like he embraced every other member also. But Minho didn't know, that everytime Kibum hugged him, the boy was wishing that he could hug him as a lover and not just as a friend. The younger male didn't know how hard it had been for Kibum to watch how Taemin cared for Minho when he had been injured and unable to move around too much. Minho didn't know how gladly Kibum would have helped him in Taemin's stead.
Minho averted his eyes, now looking at the TV screen in front of him. He loved Kibum's smile. He loved everything about him, but he couldn't look for too long at him, or else he began to stare like some lovestruck teenager with racing hormones. - Oh well, he still was a teenager.
"Hyung!", Taemins voice came from the corridor. He seemed to be excited. Minho turned his head, so that he was able to face the youth, that now was sitting down beside him. "Hyung, we're having a photo shoot tomorrow. Just the two of us." Minho got a passing view of Kibum and for a split second, he thought he was able to see how the older's gaze became dark and blue. Was Kibum jealous that he wouldn't have a photo shooting tomorrow?
Kibum sighed inaudible, leaving the living room to busy himself with the dirty dishes in the kitchen sink. He was well aware that he gave Minho and Taemin some alone time in the living room, since Jinki was at a filming place and Jonghyun alone in his room, writing some lyrics or whatever else.
The young rapper hummed the melody of A-Yo, forgetting everything around him while doing the dishes. He didn't notice how Jonghyun was approaching him. So he was really startled at first, when a hand - obviously not his own - dove next to him into the water filled sink. Jonghyun smirked playfully when he took some foam out with his hand and blew it into Kibum's face. "Yah! Jjong, are you bored or something?!", the younger snapped. Jonghyun just grinned and Kibum began to smirk himself, before splashing the older boy. "Playing dirty?", Jonghyun scoffed. The boys started laughing while splashing each other. Kibum squeaked when the vocalist started to tickle him. "Stop it!", he squealed while giggling. "Uhm... no, I don't want to."
The two males didn't notice Minho standing in the door, didn't see the look in his dark doe-like eyes.
***
"You know, you should tell him about your feelings." Kibum, lying on his bed opened his eyes to look at Jonghyun, who was leaning against the door frame. "What was that?" The older boy stepped into the room, taking a seat on Taemin's bed. "I said you should confess to Minho", Jonghyun repeated himself with a serious gaze. "How can I? I can't take him away from Taemin, can I?" Kibum sighed deeply, covering his eyes with his right arm. There was just no way, that he could confess to Minho. Yes, he loved the boy. But he didn't love him from the very beginning. It started just a few months ago. His feelings changed during the period of Hello Baby. He couldn't understand why he started liking him in this way while filming for Hello Baby. But he couldn't help it. He fell in love with his band mate that was almost the same age like himself. During Hello Baby, he saw a new, mature and caring side of Minho. The quiet boy, that could snap at some times, had surprised him positively and Kibum soon had found himself being in love with another boy.
Although he never ever has been considering himself as gay before, it was okay. Minho was a nice person. He got the looks. And his calm personality would be a good match to Kibum's obstinacy. But there was a big problem, that kept Key off from confessing. Kibum was convinced, that Taemin was also in love with SHINee's sporty member. Even though it may be strange, that he even considered other members of the group to be gay, he was sure, that he was right about Taemin.
"Have you any proof, that Taemin likes Minho, in the way you are liking him?", Jonghyun went into it, cocking an eyebrow thoughtful. "No", Kibum admitted. His voice sounded weary as if he was suffering or just exhausted from waiting and watching too long. "But I see the looks the two are exchanging. There is more between them. They aren't just friends." "Are you sure about that?" The younger male nodded slightly, causing Jonghyun to sigh. Even though he himself was often really stubborn, he didn't understand, why Kibum was pressing his point so much. Couldn't his best friend just try it once? Minho was a calm but mature boy. He wouldn't hurt his hyung over nothing. - Well okay, Kibum's feelings were far off from nothing... but anyway, that wasn't his point. His point was that he was convinced that Kibum should at least try to tell Minho how he felt. What should go wrong? Even if Minho wasn't gay at all, the younger boy wouldn't do anything to harm Kibum or SHINee. Maybe there would be more awkwardness at first between them. But that wasn't something that wouldn't go away ever again. "Think about it Kibum. Maybe he likes you too and is just waiting for you to take the first step."
***
"So you didn't tell him yet?", the maknae asked, leaning against the wall, watching Minho's back. The older boy was plying with a vending machine. Forgetting about his snack in the vendor's shaft, he turned around to look at his youngest band mate. Doe eyes met puppy eyes and he lowered his gaze slowly. "No, I didn't. Jonghyun would beat me to a pulp if I tried to take a step on Kibum." "Come on, do you really think that? Jonghyun wouldn't do that. Sure he can be loud and mean at times, but he wouldn't ever beat you up." Minho had to admit, that it almost sounded true when Taemin used that innocent voice of his to tell him what he was convinced of. With Taemin's words and glance it almost seemed feasible for Minho to confess his feelings for Kibum. Oh good lord, he loved that damn (pretty) diva since their rookie days. They had used to pull all nighters at the studio, practicing their dance steps and raps to perfection. But since back then he never has been able to tell Kibum about his feelings. Jonghyun has been always around, how could he possible confess to the other male when Jonghyun who seemed to like Kibum as well, were always near? Nobody could imagine how hard it had been for Minho when he still had to share a bunk bed with Kibum. He had had to sleep under the older one, but it most often had ended with him not being able to sleep a wink.
"Hyung? Do you even know, if Jonghyun hyung is in love with Kibum hyung? Maybe they are just best friends. I mean... I haven't been seeing them kissing till now, not for once." "They don't have to kiss, to have a relationship, Taemin-ah." The younger boy shrugged. "If I were you, I would try my luck. I would confess to Kibum hyung. Maybe he is waiting for you?" Maybe, maybe, maybe. Maybe just was too vague for Minho to take that step forward. What if Kibum didn't like him back the way he liked him? Things would become awkward. And there was still Jonghyun. Minho just couldn't believe, that Jonghyun and Kibum weren't in any kind of relationship.
When Minho came home, he once more was greeted by a sight he didn't like at all. Jonghyun and Kibum were sitting on the sofa, watching TV. Kibum's head rested on the shorter boy's shoulder while Jonghyun was stroking Kibum's side. Minho was accustomed to that sight by now. It was one of those situations that told him, that the two boys really had to be in a relationship. They seemed just to perfect together. They surely would be able to fool everyone around them, even if they really weren't in any kind of relatipnship. When they were all together on stage, Minho liked to tell himself, that every JongKey - moment, like their fans called it, was just pure fanservice. He kept telling himself, that the two boys were just for their fans this intimate. But at home with no fans around, it was impossible to keep telling himself such a lie.
The next days Minho tried to stay away from Kibum. He needed time to think. Should he confess or shouldn't he? If Kibum rejected him, things would become complicated. And if Jonghyun really was Kibum's boyfriend he would be doomed to die.
Kibum couldn't stand it anymore. Since the f*cking photo shooting the 2Min couple, how fans would call them, kept doing everything together. They seemed to be clued together. There was no chance for Kibum to talk with Minho, since the latter wasn't ever alone. The two youngest were sticking together like their lives depended on it. How could Jonghyun keep asking him if he really believed that Minho and Taemin were in love with each other, when it was this obvious. How was there any chance, that the two boys weren't in love with each other? They practically didn't do anything without the other.
Slowly, Kibum opened his eyes. He smothered a yawn and blinked at the red numerals of his buzzer. It was a few minutes after three. The dorm was quiet, he was sure that the other boys were sound asleep. At least Taemin was sleeping. He could hear the maknae's calm, even breathing. Utterly quiet, so that he wouldn't wake Taemin, he rose from his mattress. Kibum had planned to get up in the night, before the others would be awake, but he didn't thought that he would succeed. Well, it did succeed. Kibum, who was fully dressed, crouched down to pull out a leopard printed suitcase from under his bed. He had planned to leave the dorm for a few days since Minho's and Taemin's photo shooting. Kibum was smart enough to choose a day when their manager wouldn't be at the dorm. Normally their manager shared a room with Onew, but the young man was having his days off and so he wouldn't be able to realize that Kibum was missing. The suitcase was ready packed and Key needed basically just to leave. He didn't tell anyone beforehand that he would go to a friends place for a few days, but he had written a short letter to Jonghyun. The letter in one, the suitcase in the other hand he left his bedroom.
Kibum stopped at the corridor between the three bedrooms. He didn't want to leave, but he had to. He needed a few days by himself to think. It was just too much to see how close Taemin and Minho were. There was just no space for Kibum to exist in Minho's life. Even a blind man would see that they belonged together. Key was absolutely confident of the boy's love.
The suitcase abandoning in the hall way the boy went left and hesitatingly opened the door to Jonghyun's and Minho's shared bedroom. Slowly and utterly quiet he tiptoed inside the room. He went to Jonghyun's bed without a glance to Minho. He knew, he wasn't able to just go away, if he would look at the younger boy.
He was sighing inaudibly when he placed his letter on Jonghyun's bedside table. Kibum didn't want that his band mates became worried because of him, that was why he left that letter behind. He wasn't able to avoid looking at Minho anymore. When he turned around, his eyes met the shape of Minho's bed. The room was totally dark. The numerals of rapper's buzzer were the only light sources in the darkness. Kibum felt insecure all of a sudden. His heart began to beat unnaturally fast. He couldn't see Minho's face right now, but to be together with him in one room was enough to make him feel giddy.
Kibum didn't even realize that he was nearing Minho's bed, before he actually was standing beside it. Crouching down he was face to face with Minho. The younger boy was sleeping calmly. His eyes were shut, his face relaxed. His breathing was even and nearly inaudible. A smile played on Kibum's lips. Minho looked a lot like a innocent child right now. It wasn't something new for him to see, but he never realized before how beautiful Minho was when asleep, though they had used to sleep in the same bunk bed till a few months ago.
If Minho just knew how deeply in love Kibum was with him, then everything would be so much easier. Kibum wouldn't leave the dorm now, because he wouldn't have to put some daylight between him and Minho. The younger rapper possessed a very good apprehension, he often understood things long before his band mates began also to understand them. But in case of Kibum's feelings for him he seemed to be blind or ignorant.
"If you just knew...", Key mumbled. His gaze was ghosting over Minho's features. If he just could tell him how he felt... Slowly, hesitatingly he was leaning forward, till he was able to feel Minho's warm breath on his face. Closing his eyes he placed a brief kiss on the boy's lips. He has been wanting to kiss those lips for so long and now that he was able to, he was more than disappointed. It just didn't feel right without Minho responding to the kiss. With a last look in the rapper's face, he got up and left the room.
***
"Boys, what's going on here? Where are Minho and Kibum?" Taemin and Jonghyun turned around to face SHINee's leader. Jinki seemed slightly confused. The two nearly even aged boys were nowhere in sight and nobody of them had told him where they were going. "Kibum left us", Jonghyun answered voice full of disbelief. He rose from his spot on the sofa to give Jinki the letter which he had found beside his bed. The band oldest member read the letter, beginning to get worried. "And what's about Minho?" "Well, he said he wanted to ask Heechul Hyung to drive him", Taemin explained. "To drive him?" "Yep, he wants to bring Kibum back..." Jinki nodded slightly. "And why wasn't I ask to drive him?" "Because you have no car, Hyung. I would have driven him too, if we had had a car here", Jonghyun mentioned frowning. "That kid... Taemin? Call Minho, tell him, that he should wait for us where ever he is right now", Jinki instructed, while going to the apartment door. "What are you up to?", the second oldest wanted to know, following him. "I go and get the porter's car keys. You and Taemin can wait downstairs.
"Really hyung, you should let me drive", Jonghyun tried to convince Jinki. But the older shook his head. "No way. I won't let you race with that car. I'm responsible for your health and for that car." "I will drive fast, but carefully!" "Forget it!" "Oh come on, giv..." "Jonghyun, let Jinki drive", Taemin cut the second oldest boy off and climbed on the backseats. Jonghyun sighed in defeat and ceded Jinki the driver's seat.
***
"Hello pretty boy, need a taxi?" Minho stopped dead when he heard Taemin's voice. Turning his head, he saw a little red car, that drove beside him slowly and came finally to an halt. He sighed deeply. "Sure." With a smile Taemin opened the door for him and he got on. "So, where can we find Kibum?", came the question from the driver's seat. "Jonghyun! Fasten your seatbelt immediately!", Jinki snarled before returning his attention to Minho. He looked at him through the rear view mirror. Meanwhile Jonghyun did what he was told to and buckled on his seatbelt. "I have no clue. Somewhere on his road to Daegu", Minho replied, letting himself sink deeper into his seat. "Are you sure, that he want to drive all the way home?" "Do you think he travels by plane?" Minho sighed, before he took out his cell phone. "I try to call him."
Kibum winced when he heard his cell phone ringing. He did expect that the boys would try to call him and he considered not to take that call. But the driver of that car reminded him of the annoying ring tone. "Won't you answer that call? It could be important." Kibum was tramping. He has been lucky to meet a elderly woman, that didn't recognize him at all. The road home has been a way full of obstacles till now. First of all his first driver's car broke down. Then he met a new driver - the woman beside him - at a roadhouse but they blundered into a traffic jam. And now that they were able to drive without problems, his damn cell phone had to be ringing.
Kibum took his mobile phone out of his pocket and flipped it open. He was surprised to read Minho's number on the little display. For a moment he hesistated to answer the phone, but then he pressed the button and brought the phone to his right ear. "Yeah?" "Hyung, are you okay?", Minho's voice sounded worried. "I'm, why are you ca..." "Where are you? Why did you just leave?" "On my road home." Kibum didn't answer the second question. "Kibum, you will get off at the next roadhouse and you will wait there for us." Key blinked. Did Minho tell him right now what he had to do? "Why would I?" "Because I'm coming to fetch you up! So tell me where you are right now and call me back immediately when you arrive at the next roadhouse."
Somehow Minho succeeded in getting Kibum to tell him where he was right now. He told Jinki which highway he had to take, looking out the window. That was gonna be a long ride. "Come on hyung, drive a little bit faster. Or are you afraid of speed?", Jonghyun kept nagging. "Oh stop talking Jonghyun. I already drive faster as I'm allowed to." "But still not fast enough, you should let me drive." "Jonghyun hyung? Do you love Kibum hyung?", Minho asked all of a sudden, startling the other boys. Jonghyun turned around to face the younger boy. Minho could feel six pairs of eyes resting on him. "Whatever gave you that idea?", the shortest band member asked, frowning in confusion. Minho blushed. "So you aren't in love with him?" "Kibum is a damn diva. He would be too stressful for me to handle." So he has been wrong all along.
***
"There we are", Jonghyun stated. He parked the car and stopped the engine. Jinki and he switched places about two hours before. It was now around three o'clock. They were driving for almost five hours. Minho was the first to get off the car. He didn't wait for the others but rather went straight into the road house. Jinki wanted to follow him, but Taemin encircled his waist, stopping him in his tracks. The maknae rested his head on Jinkis shoulder, kissing his neck when Jonghyun wasn't watching. "Give them a few minutes. They have to sort out a few things." Jinki turned around, looking straight into the boy's eyes. "What kind of things?" Taemin chuckled, pulling the older male closer to kiss his lips. "These kind of things." Jonghyun shook his head. "And Kibum was afraid that our maknae was in love with Minho... But boys, we are in public, you know?", Jonghyun mentioned, being for once the mature one of the band.
Looking around Minho found the delicate figure of Kibum sitting at a desk at the other end of the dining room. Two girls sat next to him. Minho was sure that they were SHINee's fans and he sighed. That damn diva, why couldn't he just stay put? The boy crossed the room and stopped just for a brief second in front of the table. Wordlessly he grabbed Kibum's hand. The two girls squealed when they recognized him and he knew, that his assumption was true. He greeted them fleeting before dragging Kibum along.
"Yah! Minho, what are you doing?!", Kibum squeaked when they arrived the men's restroom. Minho opened the door, pushing the older male in. Without saying anything he pinned Kibum against the wall. The latter's eyes widened. With a determined expression in his eyes, Minho searched for Key's gaze. "Why did you leave without a word to anyone?" "Because I wanted to." "Because you wanted to? Do you even know how worried I w..." Minho couldn't finish his sentence because Kibum brushed his lips against his own. He felt Key's hands cleching in the fabric of his shirt and he brought his own hands down on the latter's hips pressing himself against the small framed boy. Kibum broke the kiss to look into Minho's eyes. "Do you even know, how long I've been waiting for this?", he asked. "No, but I've been waiting forever", a warm smile was playing on Minho's lips. "I thought you were in love with Taemin." "I wasn't", the taller boy assured. "How could I?" He breathed a kiss on Kibum's lips. "The only person I'm in love with is you." Kibum blushed slightly "Oh cheesy", he giggled, before he became serious again. "I love you even more Choi Minho." Once again their lips met.
But this time it wasn't a brief kiss. It was a kiss that told everything what neither of them had been able to voice till now. It was full of feelings and hidden desires. And Kibum was just to willing to permit Minho's tongue entrance into his mouth when he felt the boy licking on his bottom lip. First their tongues were touching lazily but really quickly they began to fiercely battle over the upper hand.
They separated from each other's lips, when they heard a slight cough next to them. Minho turned around and was face to face with a brightly smiling Taemin. "Jinki wants to go now. It's a long way back home", he explained. The two boys nodded wordlessly.
***
Kibum was sitting on the back seat between Taemin and Minho. His head rested on Minho's shoulder, a pleased smile plastered his lips. They were on the road home and he couldn't await their arrive at the dorm. From today onwards his life with the other boys would be changing, but he was looking forward to making new experiences and living with Minho day by day. The younger boy was stroking his back, intertwining his free hand with one of Kibum's.
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I just reposted this... And my grammar is bad I know ...
PAIRING/MEMBERS: Minho/Kibum, (slight) Onew/Taemin, OT5
GENRE: drama
RATING: PG
NOTES: I just reposted this from my community.
SUMMARY: Minho loves Kibum, Kibum loves Minho. But if love was that easy there wouldn't be any problems in the world, right? Both boys are too stubborn to confess to each other. And Taemin and Jonghyun are also in love's way. When Kibum leaves the dorm without telling before hand is there a chance that things will change?
Everytime Minho saw Kibum laughing and smiling with Jonghyun, he had the feeling as if his world was turning a few shades darker. Everytime he saw the older boy all alone, trying to fix his hair, while mumbling some curses, he felt the urge to take him into his arms and tell him how perfect he was - not that Kibum didn't know himself that he was flawless, or at least that's what he thought about himself. Everytime Kibum was upset, Minho wished he could comfort him. But everytime he tried to take all his courage, Jonghyun or Onew, yes even Taemin, was faster than him. And everytime Kibum was fussing over him, he had the slight hope, that the boy actually was really fussing over him and not doing it because of his haggard personality.
Kibum met Minho's gaze and a warm smile spread all over his face. Oh how he wished, that the younger boy would understand that he actually was smiling just for him! But Minho didn't understand and he didn't understand how hard it was on Kibum seeing him laughing and smiling with Taemin, neither.
When Minho was down, because he kept messing up his raps or dance steps, Kibum embraced him, like he embraced every other member also. But Minho didn't know, that everytime Kibum hugged him, the boy was wishing that he could hug him as a lover and not just as a friend. The younger male didn't know how hard it had been for Kibum to watch how Taemin cared for Minho when he had been injured and unable to move around too much. Minho didn't know how gladly Kibum would have helped him in Taemin's stead.
Minho averted his eyes, now looking at the TV screen in front of him. He loved Kibum's smile. He loved everything about him, but he couldn't look for too long at him, or else he began to stare like some lovestruck teenager with racing hormones. - Oh well, he still was a teenager.
"Hyung!", Taemins voice came from the corridor. He seemed to be excited. Minho turned his head, so that he was able to face the youth, that now was sitting down beside him. "Hyung, we're having a photo shoot tomorrow. Just the two of us." Minho got a passing view of Kibum and for a split second, he thought he was able to see how the older's gaze became dark and blue. Was Kibum jealous that he wouldn't have a photo shooting tomorrow?
Kibum sighed inaudible, leaving the living room to busy himself with the dirty dishes in the kitchen sink. He was well aware that he gave Minho and Taemin some alone time in the living room, since Jinki was at a filming place and Jonghyun alone in his room, writing some lyrics or whatever else.
The young rapper hummed the melody of A-Yo, forgetting everything around him while doing the dishes. He didn't notice how Jonghyun was approaching him. So he was really startled at first, when a hand - obviously not his own - dove next to him into the water filled sink. Jonghyun smirked playfully when he took some foam out with his hand and blew it into Kibum's face. "Yah! Jjong, are you bored or something?!", the younger snapped. Jonghyun just grinned and Kibum began to smirk himself, before splashing the older boy. "Playing dirty?", Jonghyun scoffed. The boys started laughing while splashing each other. Kibum squeaked when the vocalist started to tickle him. "Stop it!", he squealed while giggling. "Uhm... no, I don't want to."
The two males didn't notice Minho standing in the door, didn't see the look in his dark doe-like eyes.
***
"You know, you should tell him about your feelings." Kibum, lying on his bed opened his eyes to look at Jonghyun, who was leaning against the door frame. "What was that?" The older boy stepped into the room, taking a seat on Taemin's bed. "I said you should confess to Minho", Jonghyun repeated himself with a serious gaze. "How can I? I can't take him away from Taemin, can I?" Kibum sighed deeply, covering his eyes with his right arm. There was just no way, that he could confess to Minho. Yes, he loved the boy. But he didn't love him from the very beginning. It started just a few months ago. His feelings changed during the period of Hello Baby. He couldn't understand why he started liking him in this way while filming for Hello Baby. But he couldn't help it. He fell in love with his band mate that was almost the same age like himself. During Hello Baby, he saw a new, mature and caring side of Minho. The quiet boy, that could snap at some times, had surprised him positively and Kibum soon had found himself being in love with another boy.
Although he never ever has been considering himself as gay before, it was okay. Minho was a nice person. He got the looks. And his calm personality would be a good match to Kibum's obstinacy. But there was a big problem, that kept Key off from confessing. Kibum was convinced, that Taemin was also in love with SHINee's sporty member. Even though it may be strange, that he even considered other members of the group to be gay, he was sure, that he was right about Taemin.
"Have you any proof, that Taemin likes Minho, in the way you are liking him?", Jonghyun went into it, cocking an eyebrow thoughtful. "No", Kibum admitted. His voice sounded weary as if he was suffering or just exhausted from waiting and watching too long. "But I see the looks the two are exchanging. There is more between them. They aren't just friends." "Are you sure about that?" The younger male nodded slightly, causing Jonghyun to sigh. Even though he himself was often really stubborn, he didn't understand, why Kibum was pressing his point so much. Couldn't his best friend just try it once? Minho was a calm but mature boy. He wouldn't hurt his hyung over nothing. - Well okay, Kibum's feelings were far off from nothing... but anyway, that wasn't his point. His point was that he was convinced that Kibum should at least try to tell Minho how he felt. What should go wrong? Even if Minho wasn't gay at all, the younger boy wouldn't do anything to harm Kibum or SHINee. Maybe there would be more awkwardness at first between them. But that wasn't something that wouldn't go away ever again. "Think about it Kibum. Maybe he likes you too and is just waiting for you to take the first step."
***
"So you didn't tell him yet?", the maknae asked, leaning against the wall, watching Minho's back. The older boy was plying with a vending machine. Forgetting about his snack in the vendor's shaft, he turned around to look at his youngest band mate. Doe eyes met puppy eyes and he lowered his gaze slowly. "No, I didn't. Jonghyun would beat me to a pulp if I tried to take a step on Kibum." "Come on, do you really think that? Jonghyun wouldn't do that. Sure he can be loud and mean at times, but he wouldn't ever beat you up." Minho had to admit, that it almost sounded true when Taemin used that innocent voice of his to tell him what he was convinced of. With Taemin's words and glance it almost seemed feasible for Minho to confess his feelings for Kibum. Oh good lord, he loved that damn (pretty) diva since their rookie days. They had used to pull all nighters at the studio, practicing their dance steps and raps to perfection. But since back then he never has been able to tell Kibum about his feelings. Jonghyun has been always around, how could he possible confess to the other male when Jonghyun who seemed to like Kibum as well, were always near? Nobody could imagine how hard it had been for Minho when he still had to share a bunk bed with Kibum. He had had to sleep under the older one, but it most often had ended with him not being able to sleep a wink.
"Hyung? Do you even know, if Jonghyun hyung is in love with Kibum hyung? Maybe they are just best friends. I mean... I haven't been seeing them kissing till now, not for once." "They don't have to kiss, to have a relationship, Taemin-ah." The younger boy shrugged. "If I were you, I would try my luck. I would confess to Kibum hyung. Maybe he is waiting for you?" Maybe, maybe, maybe. Maybe just was too vague for Minho to take that step forward. What if Kibum didn't like him back the way he liked him? Things would become awkward. And there was still Jonghyun. Minho just couldn't believe, that Jonghyun and Kibum weren't in any kind of relationship.
When Minho came home, he once more was greeted by a sight he didn't like at all. Jonghyun and Kibum were sitting on the sofa, watching TV. Kibum's head rested on the shorter boy's shoulder while Jonghyun was stroking Kibum's side. Minho was accustomed to that sight by now. It was one of those situations that told him, that the two boys really had to be in a relationship. They seemed just to perfect together. They surely would be able to fool everyone around them, even if they really weren't in any kind of relatipnship. When they were all together on stage, Minho liked to tell himself, that every JongKey - moment, like their fans called it, was just pure fanservice. He kept telling himself, that the two boys were just for their fans this intimate. But at home with no fans around, it was impossible to keep telling himself such a lie.
The next days Minho tried to stay away from Kibum. He needed time to think. Should he confess or shouldn't he? If Kibum rejected him, things would become complicated. And if Jonghyun really was Kibum's boyfriend he would be doomed to die.
Kibum couldn't stand it anymore. Since the f*cking photo shooting the 2Min couple, how fans would call them, kept doing everything together. They seemed to be clued together. There was no chance for Kibum to talk with Minho, since the latter wasn't ever alone. The two youngest were sticking together like their lives depended on it. How could Jonghyun keep asking him if he really believed that Minho and Taemin were in love with each other, when it was this obvious. How was there any chance, that the two boys weren't in love with each other? They practically didn't do anything without the other.
Slowly, Kibum opened his eyes. He smothered a yawn and blinked at the red numerals of his buzzer. It was a few minutes after three. The dorm was quiet, he was sure that the other boys were sound asleep. At least Taemin was sleeping. He could hear the maknae's calm, even breathing. Utterly quiet, so that he wouldn't wake Taemin, he rose from his mattress. Kibum had planned to get up in the night, before the others would be awake, but he didn't thought that he would succeed. Well, it did succeed. Kibum, who was fully dressed, crouched down to pull out a leopard printed suitcase from under his bed. He had planned to leave the dorm for a few days since Minho's and Taemin's photo shooting. Kibum was smart enough to choose a day when their manager wouldn't be at the dorm. Normally their manager shared a room with Onew, but the young man was having his days off and so he wouldn't be able to realize that Kibum was missing. The suitcase was ready packed and Key needed basically just to leave. He didn't tell anyone beforehand that he would go to a friends place for a few days, but he had written a short letter to Jonghyun. The letter in one, the suitcase in the other hand he left his bedroom.
Kibum stopped at the corridor between the three bedrooms. He didn't want to leave, but he had to. He needed a few days by himself to think. It was just too much to see how close Taemin and Minho were. There was just no space for Kibum to exist in Minho's life. Even a blind man would see that they belonged together. Key was absolutely confident of the boy's love.
The suitcase abandoning in the hall way the boy went left and hesitatingly opened the door to Jonghyun's and Minho's shared bedroom. Slowly and utterly quiet he tiptoed inside the room. He went to Jonghyun's bed without a glance to Minho. He knew, he wasn't able to just go away, if he would look at the younger boy.
He was sighing inaudibly when he placed his letter on Jonghyun's bedside table. Kibum didn't want that his band mates became worried because of him, that was why he left that letter behind. He wasn't able to avoid looking at Minho anymore. When he turned around, his eyes met the shape of Minho's bed. The room was totally dark. The numerals of rapper's buzzer were the only light sources in the darkness. Kibum felt insecure all of a sudden. His heart began to beat unnaturally fast. He couldn't see Minho's face right now, but to be together with him in one room was enough to make him feel giddy.
Kibum didn't even realize that he was nearing Minho's bed, before he actually was standing beside it. Crouching down he was face to face with Minho. The younger boy was sleeping calmly. His eyes were shut, his face relaxed. His breathing was even and nearly inaudible. A smile played on Kibum's lips. Minho looked a lot like a innocent child right now. It wasn't something new for him to see, but he never realized before how beautiful Minho was when asleep, though they had used to sleep in the same bunk bed till a few months ago.
If Minho just knew how deeply in love Kibum was with him, then everything would be so much easier. Kibum wouldn't leave the dorm now, because he wouldn't have to put some daylight between him and Minho. The younger rapper possessed a very good apprehension, he often understood things long before his band mates began also to understand them. But in case of Kibum's feelings for him he seemed to be blind or ignorant.
"If you just knew...", Key mumbled. His gaze was ghosting over Minho's features. If he just could tell him how he felt... Slowly, hesitatingly he was leaning forward, till he was able to feel Minho's warm breath on his face. Closing his eyes he placed a brief kiss on the boy's lips. He has been wanting to kiss those lips for so long and now that he was able to, he was more than disappointed. It just didn't feel right without Minho responding to the kiss. With a last look in the rapper's face, he got up and left the room.
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"Boys, what's going on here? Where are Minho and Kibum?" Taemin and Jonghyun turned around to face SHINee's leader. Jinki seemed slightly confused. The two nearly even aged boys were nowhere in sight and nobody of them had told him where they were going. "Kibum left us", Jonghyun answered voice full of disbelief. He rose from his spot on the sofa to give Jinki the letter which he had found beside his bed. The band oldest member read the letter, beginning to get worried. "And what's about Minho?" "Well, he said he wanted to ask Heechul Hyung to drive him", Taemin explained. "To drive him?" "Yep, he wants to bring Kibum back..." Jinki nodded slightly. "And why wasn't I ask to drive him?" "Because you have no car, Hyung. I would have driven him too, if we had had a car here", Jonghyun mentioned frowning. "That kid... Taemin? Call Minho, tell him, that he should wait for us where ever he is right now", Jinki instructed, while going to the apartment door. "What are you up to?", the second oldest wanted to know, following him. "I go and get the porter's car keys. You and Taemin can wait downstairs.
"Really hyung, you should let me drive", Jonghyun tried to convince Jinki. But the older shook his head. "No way. I won't let you race with that car. I'm responsible for your health and for that car." "I will drive fast, but carefully!" "Forget it!" "Oh come on, giv..." "Jonghyun, let Jinki drive", Taemin cut the second oldest boy off and climbed on the backseats. Jonghyun sighed in defeat and ceded Jinki the driver's seat.
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"Hello pretty boy, need a taxi?" Minho stopped dead when he heard Taemin's voice. Turning his head, he saw a little red car, that drove beside him slowly and came finally to an halt. He sighed deeply. "Sure." With a smile Taemin opened the door for him and he got on. "So, where can we find Kibum?", came the question from the driver's seat. "Jonghyun! Fasten your seatbelt immediately!", Jinki snarled before returning his attention to Minho. He looked at him through the rear view mirror. Meanwhile Jonghyun did what he was told to and buckled on his seatbelt. "I have no clue. Somewhere on his road to Daegu", Minho replied, letting himself sink deeper into his seat. "Are you sure, that he want to drive all the way home?" "Do you think he travels by plane?" Minho sighed, before he took out his cell phone. "I try to call him."
Kibum winced when he heard his cell phone ringing. He did expect that the boys would try to call him and he considered not to take that call. But the driver of that car reminded him of the annoying ring tone. "Won't you answer that call? It could be important." Kibum was tramping. He has been lucky to meet a elderly woman, that didn't recognize him at all. The road home has been a way full of obstacles till now. First of all his first driver's car broke down. Then he met a new driver - the woman beside him - at a roadhouse but they blundered into a traffic jam. And now that they were able to drive without problems, his damn cell phone had to be ringing.
Kibum took his mobile phone out of his pocket and flipped it open. He was surprised to read Minho's number on the little display. For a moment he hesistated to answer the phone, but then he pressed the button and brought the phone to his right ear. "Yeah?" "Hyung, are you okay?", Minho's voice sounded worried. "I'm, why are you ca..." "Where are you? Why did you just leave?" "On my road home." Kibum didn't answer the second question. "Kibum, you will get off at the next roadhouse and you will wait there for us." Key blinked. Did Minho tell him right now what he had to do? "Why would I?" "Because I'm coming to fetch you up! So tell me where you are right now and call me back immediately when you arrive at the next roadhouse."
Somehow Minho succeeded in getting Kibum to tell him where he was right now. He told Jinki which highway he had to take, looking out the window. That was gonna be a long ride. "Come on hyung, drive a little bit faster. Or are you afraid of speed?", Jonghyun kept nagging. "Oh stop talking Jonghyun. I already drive faster as I'm allowed to." "But still not fast enough, you should let me drive." "Jonghyun hyung? Do you love Kibum hyung?", Minho asked all of a sudden, startling the other boys. Jonghyun turned around to face the younger boy. Minho could feel six pairs of eyes resting on him. "Whatever gave you that idea?", the shortest band member asked, frowning in confusion. Minho blushed. "So you aren't in love with him?" "Kibum is a damn diva. He would be too stressful for me to handle." So he has been wrong all along.
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"There we are", Jonghyun stated. He parked the car and stopped the engine. Jinki and he switched places about two hours before. It was now around three o'clock. They were driving for almost five hours. Minho was the first to get off the car. He didn't wait for the others but rather went straight into the road house. Jinki wanted to follow him, but Taemin encircled his waist, stopping him in his tracks. The maknae rested his head on Jinkis shoulder, kissing his neck when Jonghyun wasn't watching. "Give them a few minutes. They have to sort out a few things." Jinki turned around, looking straight into the boy's eyes. "What kind of things?" Taemin chuckled, pulling the older male closer to kiss his lips. "These kind of things." Jonghyun shook his head. "And Kibum was afraid that our maknae was in love with Minho... But boys, we are in public, you know?", Jonghyun mentioned, being for once the mature one of the band.
Looking around Minho found the delicate figure of Kibum sitting at a desk at the other end of the dining room. Two girls sat next to him. Minho was sure that they were SHINee's fans and he sighed. That damn diva, why couldn't he just stay put? The boy crossed the room and stopped just for a brief second in front of the table. Wordlessly he grabbed Kibum's hand. The two girls squealed when they recognized him and he knew, that his assumption was true. He greeted them fleeting before dragging Kibum along.
"Yah! Minho, what are you doing?!", Kibum squeaked when they arrived the men's restroom. Minho opened the door, pushing the older male in. Without saying anything he pinned Kibum against the wall. The latter's eyes widened. With a determined expression in his eyes, Minho searched for Key's gaze. "Why did you leave without a word to anyone?" "Because I wanted to." "Because you wanted to? Do you even know how worried I w..." Minho couldn't finish his sentence because Kibum brushed his lips against his own. He felt Key's hands cleching in the fabric of his shirt and he brought his own hands down on the latter's hips pressing himself against the small framed boy. Kibum broke the kiss to look into Minho's eyes. "Do you even know, how long I've been waiting for this?", he asked. "No, but I've been waiting forever", a warm smile was playing on Minho's lips. "I thought you were in love with Taemin." "I wasn't", the taller boy assured. "How could I?" He breathed a kiss on Kibum's lips. "The only person I'm in love with is you." Kibum blushed slightly "Oh cheesy", he giggled, before he became serious again. "I love you even more Choi Minho." Once again their lips met.
But this time it wasn't a brief kiss. It was a kiss that told everything what neither of them had been able to voice till now. It was full of feelings and hidden desires. And Kibum was just to willing to permit Minho's tongue entrance into his mouth when he felt the boy licking on his bottom lip. First their tongues were touching lazily but really quickly they began to fiercely battle over the upper hand.
They separated from each other's lips, when they heard a slight cough next to them. Minho turned around and was face to face with a brightly smiling Taemin. "Jinki wants to go now. It's a long way back home", he explained. The two boys nodded wordlessly.
***
Kibum was sitting on the back seat between Taemin and Minho. His head rested on Minho's shoulder, a pleased smile plastered his lips. They were on the road home and he couldn't await their arrive at the dorm. From today onwards his life with the other boys would be changing, but he was looking forward to making new experiences and living with Minho day by day. The younger boy was stroking his back, intertwining his free hand with one of Kibum's.
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I just reposted this... And my grammar is bad I know ...