I feel it coming

[aefenix]

I feel it coming. The very thing that devoured me so much last year into my final dissent into the you know where. I just don't know what is wrong with me. I want loyality (I realize that isn't a real word, but by the hair of a chipmunk it should be) back in my life. Midori, you were always just so solid in being there for me. Nicole, most of the time you were too. Everyone down there just seemed to always be there for me. I never felt bad with any of you guys. Maybe that is naive to fathom, but I still love to relish in the illusion of it. I wonder why I'm getting like this? I'm no sure. Maybe it just is because I don't feel I simply have my support group. We all seemed to support each other in whatever it may have been. Had it been a performance of mine to a swim meet of Sarah's.

The point is that I am forever in debt to the kindness and compassion you guys showed me. Not did you only make me feel more myself than anyone has or most likely ever will, you guys loved me..fuck I'm pretty sure even Aaron L. loved me. Scary thought ya? Just kidding Aaron. Well, I think I need to go home to visit soon, and just settle down my life a bit with you guys.

Much love, hope to see you soon,

Travis