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the last time i was in this city i wondered if i would ever return again. the the volcano happened and it seemed that i had been given a few extra days to properly prepare for the possibility that i may never return.
but now less than a year later here i am again. but just like the last time i was here it still feels surreal. everything about this city seems awesome and perfectly fitting. but i don't belong here.
i cant really describe it very well. i have visited and stayed in many different places before ad never felt this. perhaps its because to a part of me this place really is a faeryland. its awesome but beyond my reach. when i a here i am only ever visiting. but perhaps most of its because to stay here would come at a great cross. i feel it would be like giving up everything i have gained so fr in order to start again.
my home city of soton is nothing special. it is basically the same as many other uk cities. but any other city would not have all my friends in it. and that is the short of it. i know from my friends who have already had to lave soton that it is a great loss. and my mind is far from ready to deal with that.
(i am writing this on my kindle while sitting on the end of the historical peer and so it is probably full of errors. i will login later to clean it up.)
(Removed this from my blog and reposted to just LJ - forgot about the sotech syndication thing and realised that this really does not fit there ;^^ )
but now less than a year later here i am again. but just like the last time i was here it still feels surreal. everything about this city seems awesome and perfectly fitting. but i don't belong here.
i cant really describe it very well. i have visited and stayed in many different places before ad never felt this. perhaps its because to a part of me this place really is a faeryland. its awesome but beyond my reach. when i a here i am only ever visiting. but perhaps most of its because to stay here would come at a great cross. i feel it would be like giving up everything i have gained so fr in order to start again.
my home city of soton is nothing special. it is basically the same as many other uk cities. but any other city would not have all my friends in it. and that is the short of it. i know from my friends who have already had to lave soton that it is a great loss. and my mind is far from ready to deal with that.
(i am writing this on my kindle while sitting on the end of the historical peer and so it is probably full of errors. i will login later to clean it up.)
(Removed this from my blog and reposted to just LJ - forgot about the sotech syndication thing and realised that this really does not fit there ;^^ )