empty

[aedryan]

what I once wanted....
now pushed away like one drink too many
it was just one year too many bathed in efforted dissillusion
and now your door is locked and my phone silent
almost as silent as the heart that once beat where you stand
my chest an empty cavern filled with moans of release
and a distinct pull to pursue nothing
ah, if only I had better vision
maybe I would have seen it on the horizon
but how would I have known what choices you would carry
cradled lovingly in your half smile
a smile that disregards boundaries
and free will