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Steph.
fair enough. still. it's just... odd. and slightly unsettling. not you and Sarah specifically, but... everything. I wish I still believed in fate. I like that idea better than chance.
Steph.
not that I was ever positive when it came down to fate - you were the one who always insisted. but mostly, I believed. now, I feel like I look at the world entirely too realistically.
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For the record, this is me wanting you to convince me that I still should. Not that I'd believe you; but I want to know that you believe it.
What I want is to feel that way again about you; like I can trust you'll be in my life a year from now. Five years. Ten. I want to talk about the possibilities of our future and actually believe we'll get there one day. I want that innocence back, but I can't have it until you prove that it's worth trusting. And it won't be easy and it will take time, but I want you to prove that to me. I want to believe in fate, again. I want to believe that there's something more than chance. That some things are meant to be.
This is me praying you'll convince me. That you'll try with everything in you. That's what I need from you.
fair enough. still. it's just... odd. and slightly unsettling. not you and Sarah specifically, but... everything. I wish I still believed in fate. I like that idea better than chance.
Steph.
not that I was ever positive when it came down to fate - you were the one who always insisted. but mostly, I believed. now, I feel like I look at the world entirely too realistically.
---
For the record, this is me wanting you to convince me that I still should. Not that I'd believe you; but I want to know that you believe it.
What I want is to feel that way again about you; like I can trust you'll be in my life a year from now. Five years. Ten. I want to talk about the possibilities of our future and actually believe we'll get there one day. I want that innocence back, but I can't have it until you prove that it's worth trusting. And it won't be easy and it will take time, but I want you to prove that to me. I want to believe in fate, again. I want to believe that there's something more than chance. That some things are meant to be.
This is me praying you'll convince me. That you'll try with everything in you. That's what I need from you.