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I picked up my magic pills today and am ready to start taking them tomorrow. I am so excited for this and I sincerely hope that it gives me the results that I am hoping for. Today I was off and I chose NOT to take the pills today so that I could have one final binge day to get rid of some of the temptations in my kitchen. I also went through my closet today and did a giant purge. I am taking a different approach. I got rid of almost all of my "skinny" clothes that I have been hoarding in my closet for ages. I figure that if I shred the weight I will be so excited to buy new clothes anyway that I really will have no desire to wear the shit that was hanging out in my closet anyway. I did come across this one shirt that I used to LOVE that was still hanging out there. I am sure that I haven't worn it since like 2003 or 2004 and i am sure that I will likely never actually wear THIS particular shirt again, but I did hang it on the dominant part of my closet door so that I have to see it every time I open my closet. The shirt was adorable - but it is TINY. Strapless and cut at an angle, showing part of the tummy. I am sure that even at some point I probably wore that shirt and thought that I was "fat". Idiot.
I have prepared my breakfast and lunch for tomorrow and have planned my dinner for tomorrow night. Right at 1000 calories. My goal is to stay around that range. I have planned to do a few detox cleanses as well, but I don't intend to start that immediately while starting the meds. I am finishing off the last beer in my fridge right now because it is best not to drink any alcohol on the meds. I know that I can do this. Right? I won't disclose here my current weight or even how much I wish to lose. Quite frankly I am pretty ashamed. I will update periodically on the results, but I won't drown this journal with the details. Let's just hope that this works - and it helps me find the happiness and self confidence that I am seeking!
I have prepared my breakfast and lunch for tomorrow and have planned my dinner for tomorrow night. Right at 1000 calories. My goal is to stay around that range. I have planned to do a few detox cleanses as well, but I don't intend to start that immediately while starting the meds. I am finishing off the last beer in my fridge right now because it is best not to drink any alcohol on the meds. I know that I can do this. Right? I won't disclose here my current weight or even how much I wish to lose. Quite frankly I am pretty ashamed. I will update periodically on the results, but I won't drown this journal with the details. Let's just hope that this works - and it helps me find the happiness and self confidence that I am seeking!