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Have you ever done anything that you've regretted so bad that it hurts? I do that too much....and I don't know why. I really don't mean to hurt the people I care about...thats not even part of my thought process. But it ends up being that way anyways. I try as hard as I can but maybe I need to try harder. I have learned one thing though.....don't ever think that someone you love isn't trying. It hurts them BAD and then when you realize what you've done it hurts you because you know that if you would have just chilled out....things would have been different. My main fear is that everytime I do something like that .... it takes a little piece of that person away. I might never get that generosity back....I mean I just started to and I had to ruin it....but I will try my hardest and I don't care how long it takes. And I'm just gonna go ahead and admit that I was wrong. I'm also going to go ahead and admit that Donielle is my everything. Everything I do is somehow involved with her. I would be a complete mental wreck if it weren't for her support throughout highschool and the roughest times of our relationship. I care about her more than deeply. It's way beyond that. She is second only to my faith in the lord. She is too good for me and I really dont know what she sees in me but ....... now I really dont care what it is she sees......im just so happy she sees it. I hope that we're together for a lifetime and more. well since iv'e spilled my gutts i guess its time for me to go....hope everyone has a good night!
Sparky loves you Donielle!
Sparky loves you Donielle!