Why do I always make angsty posts?

[adyana]

Someone reading this must think that I'm so emo.  But I'm not.  That's just always what I end up writing about.

So lately, I feel inadequate.

I called out of a shift incorrectly and my boss/friend bitched me out about it.

I didn't call my friend to hang out before he left forever.

I didn't call my other friend that's leaving forever today.

My roommate probably hates me.

And, of course, this guy pissed me the fuck off last night.

So I'm doing real well on the social aspect of my life.

On the good side, I have most of my stuff packed, I'll be home Monday, I get to help Matt pick out a cat, and my friend Alex is coming to visit me.

So there are some good things.  I guess.  Ha.  Emo.

It's weird.  I'm not sad to be leaving this year.  Freshman year I was sad to be leaving Nick and Michele and some of my other friends.  Last year I was sad because I was leaving Ryan.  And this year.  Well, mostly people left me.  So I'm done with being sad.  It's not worth it.  I may be angsty, but I am not sad.

I wish people would just be happy.  What's the point to life if there isn't some happiness in it? Somewhere?  Why try holding onto things that aren't working?  Why not just try something different.  There need to be some risks in life.

I'm so tired.

I was guarding a stadium full of chairs all night.