my heart hurts.
as a new year's resolution, i have decided once and for all to quit smoking. (cigarettes.) i realize that i'm dying, and the only way to lengthen this short life/long death is to quit killing myself with "rat poison" and "dog piss" and whatever else i'm inhaling with that yummy turkish jade... royal... or **twitch** mandarin mint... *twitch* grr. i haven't smoke a cigarette in three days.
i'd also love to give up this whole technology thing, but i'll have to wait until later this year, when i get my fucking papers signed, and then i won't have access to this stupid shit. yay! down with technology! UP UP UP with snail mail- and books!
for the new year i wasn't able to see the dead play live (me and toad couldn't afford a hotel room, a ticket, or the train), so instead we spent the night at tanya's and watched "the closing of winterland- '78" at 3 in the morning. woohoo! last night was chaos. i welcomed the new year from 12 to 6 in the fucking morning. it was maybe the most decent new year's eve i've had since... either the time me and laura were babysitting, drinking liquor, and watching half-baked, or the time when me and angela were rolling around on the floor while eddie was showing us what he's got. haha- i don't remember what years those were, but they were fun.
my eyes are watery, red and dry, my back aches, my heart hurts, my nail ripped, i cut myself with a knife (accident), and the scab from my burn is tearing off.
oddly, i feel decent (almost good), but there are some wars going on in my brain right now... i need to get some sleep.
i'd also love to give up this whole technology thing, but i'll have to wait until later this year, when i get my fucking papers signed, and then i won't have access to this stupid shit. yay! down with technology! UP UP UP with snail mail- and books!
for the new year i wasn't able to see the dead play live (me and toad couldn't afford a hotel room, a ticket, or the train), so instead we spent the night at tanya's and watched "the closing of winterland- '78" at 3 in the morning. woohoo! last night was chaos. i welcomed the new year from 12 to 6 in the fucking morning. it was maybe the most decent new year's eve i've had since... either the time me and laura were babysitting, drinking liquor, and watching half-baked, or the time when me and angela were rolling around on the floor while eddie was showing us what he's got. haha- i don't remember what years those were, but they were fun.
my eyes are watery, red and dry, my back aches, my heart hurts, my nail ripped, i cut myself with a knife (accident), and the scab from my burn is tearing off.
oddly, i feel decent (almost good), but there are some wars going on in my brain right now... i need to get some sleep.