Crush on a cousin?
So I have this cousin who became pretty easy in the eyes recently. We usually don't see each other a lot but since other cousins came over our houses for an upcoming wedding, we are in each other's presence as of late. He starts becoming touchy-feely and compliments me a lot ~because I have a nice ass~. At first I thought nothing of it but as each day passes by that we see each other, his remarks become more and more risque. I.E.:
When we pass each other, he has to turn around and ogle at me or he would make me turn around so he can get ~a better view~ and obviously I would give him a face and he would go "Geez, I'm just looking at you!" and a wink. Every. Time.
Then there was this time I was laying on a lounge talking to a friend on my cell and he practically lied on me to wrestle my phone away to see if it was a guy/a boyfriend.
Then at the day of the wedding, he came over to my table (might I add, his girlfriend was also present on that table) and just blurted "damn, if I was 8 years younger and we weren't related..." and made me get up so he could get ~a better view~ of my dress and then hugged me tightly for a good 20 seconds and smacked my ass.
After all of this, I lost appetite. I literally haven't consumed anything in two days except water. The sight of food also makes me gag. Then all of the songs I listen to remind me of my cousin. I start having these obsessive thoughts about him. Like, hoping he would continue to do the stuff he does or pays me more attention or we would still have an intimate relationship even after my other cousins leave. Then at the same time I feel gross for having these thoughts about a BLOOD RELATIVE.
Ugh, what's wrong with me? What should I do?
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When we pass each other, he has to turn around and ogle at me or he would make me turn around so he can get ~a better view~ and obviously I would give him a face and he would go "Geez, I'm just looking at you!" and a wink. Every. Time.
Then there was this time I was laying on a lounge talking to a friend on my cell and he practically lied on me to wrestle my phone away to see if it was a guy/a boyfriend.
Then at the day of the wedding, he came over to my table (might I add, his girlfriend was also present on that table) and just blurted "damn, if I was 8 years younger and we weren't related..." and made me get up so he could get ~a better view~ of my dress and then hugged me tightly for a good 20 seconds and smacked my ass.
After all of this, I lost appetite. I literally haven't consumed anything in two days except water. The sight of food also makes me gag. Then all of the songs I listen to remind me of my cousin. I start having these obsessive thoughts about him. Like, hoping he would continue to do the stuff he does or pays me more attention or we would still have an intimate relationship even after my other cousins leave. Then at the same time I feel gross for having these thoughts about a BLOOD RELATIVE.
Ugh, what's wrong with me? What should I do?
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