Advice needed about friendships
Hey. I'm Lizzie, I'm female, 22 years old from Wales. I'm not sure if this advice forum is checked often, but I really need some advice and it can't hurt to post it here.
Well, ever since I started at high school I was labelled a 'loner' and I found that I just didn't fit in with any groups of friends. Some people bullied me about it, while others let me join them, but I was kept in the 'back ground.' They didn't mind me being there, but they didn't include me much in their conversations. They'd only talk to me if for some reason one of their 'preferred' friends weren't around. On the rare occasion I'd make a friend, we'd be close for a while, then they'd find someone better. This pattern continued all through high school and college.
When I was 19 I was hospitalised for over two years because my self harm was becoming continuously life threatening. I was released June 11th, 4 months ago. Since then, I've found a few activities to attend to keep me busy and help me re-adjust to life back in society. I'm attending a theatre group, a support group for self harmers, an art therapy group and a first aid course. You can probably guess what has happened...I feel that I'm not fitting in with the people in these groups at all. Somehow, I think it's all my fault that I can't seem to make friends. Well it is really.
Should I just stop attending all these groups? They're starting to make me really miserable. I want to give up on these relationships and accept the fact that I'll never make any friends, but I'm worried my parents will tell my doctor and they'll try and lock me back up in hospital again. I still live with my parents so they'll want to know why I don't want to go to my group activities anymore. I'll also be stuck at home with nothing to do if I give up these groups and I'm thinking maybe I'll just get bored and depressed? I really don't know what to do, please, please try to offer some suggestions. I would appreciate any sort of opinion so much! Thank you.
Well, ever since I started at high school I was labelled a 'loner' and I found that I just didn't fit in with any groups of friends. Some people bullied me about it, while others let me join them, but I was kept in the 'back ground.' They didn't mind me being there, but they didn't include me much in their conversations. They'd only talk to me if for some reason one of their 'preferred' friends weren't around. On the rare occasion I'd make a friend, we'd be close for a while, then they'd find someone better. This pattern continued all through high school and college.
When I was 19 I was hospitalised for over two years because my self harm was becoming continuously life threatening. I was released June 11th, 4 months ago. Since then, I've found a few activities to attend to keep me busy and help me re-adjust to life back in society. I'm attending a theatre group, a support group for self harmers, an art therapy group and a first aid course. You can probably guess what has happened...I feel that I'm not fitting in with the people in these groups at all. Somehow, I think it's all my fault that I can't seem to make friends. Well it is really.
Should I just stop attending all these groups? They're starting to make me really miserable. I want to give up on these relationships and accept the fact that I'll never make any friends, but I'm worried my parents will tell my doctor and they'll try and lock me back up in hospital again. I still live with my parents so they'll want to know why I don't want to go to my group activities anymore. I'll also be stuck at home with nothing to do if I give up these groups and I'm thinking maybe I'll just get bored and depressed? I really don't know what to do, please, please try to offer some suggestions. I would appreciate any sort of opinion so much! Thank you.