Inspired
Hey guys. My name is Viva and I just joined this community. I was really inspired by "Fifteen" by Taylor Swift and wrote a journal entry about really long rants about things. If you want to read it, please check it out but have an open mind. I wouldn't suggest you read it if you think a lot of things are weird...thank you :)
I'd love it if you could add me as a friend. Thank you in advance if you can help me with my problems and if you add me. I'll add you back. The stuff below is literally taken from my journal...
FIFTEEN THINGS I'D LIKE TO KNOW AT FIFTEEN
I probably sound really stupid for asking these things. But these are things I'm interested in, and if you could give me advice or anything, it'd be nice. I know a lot of things I'd be adamant towards, especially if it involved me standing up for myself. I'm not good at that. Sometimes things just need to click into place naturally instead of by force. But if you're going to answer, thank you in advance!
01. What happens when you're in a serious relationship with someone and you're starting to get very intimate but then you know that he or she has HIV or something along the lines of that, such as an STD? I know at first reaction, I'd dump the person. But how would you do that and explain to them why you're leaving them? And I don't know if I'd be able to pick love over health, especially if I know the relationship might not last. I know it sounds rude to oust someone because of that, but it's for my own safety too. Safety first!
02. What happens if I want to save my first kiss for someone special? How do I tell my boyfriend? Wouldn't he get pissed because he isn't someone "special"? Would he just not be worth being together with if he doesn't understand?
03. Is it really that wrong for a girl to want to pay part of something for a guy? It sucks that guys always have to pay for everything. I mean, nobody's done this for me because I haven't been asked out. But honestly, it's unfair that girls expect guys to shower them with attention when they're being total snobs at times. How can guys stand them? And guys, being in a bunch of relationships in high school...you'd half expect them to be broke by the time they'd get to university, from all the money spent on their girls.
04. Is there really such thing as a "true" or "best" friend in high school? Everything's been so dismal for me.
05. People want to follow their dreams, even if it leads them nowhere. Should I pursue some artistic or modeling career because I want to? I know I won't make it and I don't want to overinflate my confidence or ego by saying I can do it. Do people really end up with jobs they enjoy?
06. Why don't people look at things from more than one side to see double perspectives of things so that they can see why people do things their way and why they refuse to act a certain way and why they are who they are?
07. Why don't people care about things such as double perspectives in high school? They all think it's "gay" and stuff. And high school students never care about other people's feelings or really, respect anyone. They never bother to really get to know everyone because they assume that people try and fit a mould. I know I don't. But how come nobody cares about personalities anymore? Now, I'm not saying that because I'm an "ugly". I know I'm not ugly. But I'm just wondering why people never care about how the mind thinks. If I showed this to someone, they'd laugh at me and call me weird and lame or be ignorant and say, "Why do you talk about things that nobody cares about?"
08. Are there any "real" people out there in the world?
09. I was always under the impression that the nicest girls were always the fakest. I know someone might say that this is jealousy. But sometimes it's true because people are so silent. Then again, we get mad when people judge and scream it out loud. When will we ever be satisfied?
10. Does love exist? Everyone thinks that I'll never be able to find anyone, and they sort of pity me, because I'm so tall. I think my ideals for guys might be a little high. But I know it's lower than what most girls think. It's annoying when they all say, "Oh my gosh! He's so ugly, don't go with him to the dance. He's a loser!" How disrespectful is that? It's even worse when you yourself aren't that popular and you're going around pointing fingers. The nerve!
11. How come boys always go for the super short, curvy and pretty girls who have plastic personalities and are "nice"? What about the girls with the real substance? I think this might be related to the same thing about how girls don't like the unpopular guys because they seem like losers. Sometimes they really are. But there's more than just meets the eye, right?
12. If you're making out with someone, how do you control your spit? Just wondering. Really, just wondering. I won't be at it anytime soon, but I'm curious.
13. When exactly do you start realizing that there's more to life than popularity, boys/girls and relationships? And also, when did you start sticking up for yourself if something like bullying happened at your school? When did you find out who you really were, as in your own identity? Or is life just a long journey to find out who we are, based on our life experiences?
14. Do parents-in-law really expect you to give birth to children? The idea of hurting on the wedding night scares me and the idea of enduring childbirth scares me even more. Honestly. I'm afraid, very afraid. Makes me want to become a nun but I know that that's horribly dismal.
15. Do people ever change?
I'd love it if you could add me as a friend. Thank you in advance if you can help me with my problems and if you add me. I'll add you back. The stuff below is literally taken from my journal...
FIFTEEN THINGS I'D LIKE TO KNOW AT FIFTEEN
I probably sound really stupid for asking these things. But these are things I'm interested in, and if you could give me advice or anything, it'd be nice. I know a lot of things I'd be adamant towards, especially if it involved me standing up for myself. I'm not good at that. Sometimes things just need to click into place naturally instead of by force. But if you're going to answer, thank you in advance!
01. What happens when you're in a serious relationship with someone and you're starting to get very intimate but then you know that he or she has HIV or something along the lines of that, such as an STD? I know at first reaction, I'd dump the person. But how would you do that and explain to them why you're leaving them? And I don't know if I'd be able to pick love over health, especially if I know the relationship might not last. I know it sounds rude to oust someone because of that, but it's for my own safety too. Safety first!
02. What happens if I want to save my first kiss for someone special? How do I tell my boyfriend? Wouldn't he get pissed because he isn't someone "special"? Would he just not be worth being together with if he doesn't understand?
03. Is it really that wrong for a girl to want to pay part of something for a guy? It sucks that guys always have to pay for everything. I mean, nobody's done this for me because I haven't been asked out. But honestly, it's unfair that girls expect guys to shower them with attention when they're being total snobs at times. How can guys stand them? And guys, being in a bunch of relationships in high school...you'd half expect them to be broke by the time they'd get to university, from all the money spent on their girls.
04. Is there really such thing as a "true" or "best" friend in high school? Everything's been so dismal for me.
05. People want to follow their dreams, even if it leads them nowhere. Should I pursue some artistic or modeling career because I want to? I know I won't make it and I don't want to overinflate my confidence or ego by saying I can do it. Do people really end up with jobs they enjoy?
06. Why don't people look at things from more than one side to see double perspectives of things so that they can see why people do things their way and why they refuse to act a certain way and why they are who they are?
07. Why don't people care about things such as double perspectives in high school? They all think it's "gay" and stuff. And high school students never care about other people's feelings or really, respect anyone. They never bother to really get to know everyone because they assume that people try and fit a mould. I know I don't. But how come nobody cares about personalities anymore? Now, I'm not saying that because I'm an "ugly". I know I'm not ugly. But I'm just wondering why people never care about how the mind thinks. If I showed this to someone, they'd laugh at me and call me weird and lame or be ignorant and say, "Why do you talk about things that nobody cares about?"
08. Are there any "real" people out there in the world?
09. I was always under the impression that the nicest girls were always the fakest. I know someone might say that this is jealousy. But sometimes it's true because people are so silent. Then again, we get mad when people judge and scream it out loud. When will we ever be satisfied?
10. Does love exist? Everyone thinks that I'll never be able to find anyone, and they sort of pity me, because I'm so tall. I think my ideals for guys might be a little high. But I know it's lower than what most girls think. It's annoying when they all say, "Oh my gosh! He's so ugly, don't go with him to the dance. He's a loser!" How disrespectful is that? It's even worse when you yourself aren't that popular and you're going around pointing fingers. The nerve!
11. How come boys always go for the super short, curvy and pretty girls who have plastic personalities and are "nice"? What about the girls with the real substance? I think this might be related to the same thing about how girls don't like the unpopular guys because they seem like losers. Sometimes they really are. But there's more than just meets the eye, right?
12. If you're making out with someone, how do you control your spit? Just wondering. Really, just wondering. I won't be at it anytime soon, but I'm curious.
13. When exactly do you start realizing that there's more to life than popularity, boys/girls and relationships? And also, when did you start sticking up for yourself if something like bullying happened at your school? When did you find out who you really were, as in your own identity? Or is life just a long journey to find out who we are, based on our life experiences?
14. Do parents-in-law really expect you to give birth to children? The idea of hurting on the wedding night scares me and the idea of enduring childbirth scares me even more. Honestly. I'm afraid, very afraid. Makes me want to become a nun but I know that that's horribly dismal.
15. Do people ever change?